Hostage - Larry Stylinon AU

first 2 appointments

*Harry's POV*

It was now Thursday and I did so much in 5 days I really had a good week and almost turned all my thoughts off of what happened in my life, the only time I had a hard time was when I was in bed or in the shower. It was nice to live like that for a change.

The appointment was today, which means I have to tell everything to a stranger. I am also very suspicious about him ,how is he like? Is it an old man? Would he listen to me? Can I trust him? Of course he would listen, that's what  they pay him for. But what if he can't help me?

I was now seated in the car next to my mom on our way to the therapist. It was not very far from here and if it wasn't raining outside we would've walked.

A few minutes later we arrived at the practice. We walked towards the woman behind the counter and let them know I was here.I didn't know what was the plan or if "mr. Styles?" A young boy interrupted me. Wow. " Yes, over here." I said while standing up. He was so nice to look at and he had beautiful eyes and his voice was so soft like I was listening to marshmallows giggling. Just wow. He didn't look much older too. I stopped staring when he motioned me to follow him.

He stood by the door and shook my hand "hello you must be Harry, my name is Louis and please just call me Louis not dokter or something" why did he stop talking "yes i-i am Harry" he chuckled and it was such a nice noise. He also shook my mothers hand and we could sit down. "So Harry, tell me something about yourself, like how old you are and with who you live." I assumed he already knew these things but I wasn't going to protest, it were just simple questions, yet hard to answer when such a handsome man is sitting in front of you. "I am 19 and I live with my mom now" I said and he nodded "I am not going to ask about your past today its just so we get to know a bit about eachother" he said and I nodded "I am 23 and just finished my study and I hope you think I do my job good " he actually made me smile a bit. "I think you're doing great so far." He smiled. That's basically how the whole session went. He, and my mom obviously, got to know a lot more about me. I came to know about him too, he sounds like a great guy. I was certainly going more often.

We where nearly at the end of the session and it was kind of quiet and he was staring at me "I can't think of a question, do you have one?" He was still looking right in my eyes "ehm no ,well yes actually I have to say something " they looked at me with questionable expressions on their faces "first I thought how could I tell something what I dont want to tell my mom, to a stranger" and he smiled, I still didn't look at anything but his eyes and he still looked at mine "but you are doing a really good job" and he smiled even wider. It was such a beautiful sight, how his eyes crinkled and his whole face lit up. I tore my gaze away from him when I felt my mom pad my leg. "We should say goodbye and make the next appointment because I think Louis has other things to do aswell" I nodded and Louis walked to the door to let us out.

We made a new appointment at the counter ,and the next one will be just the two of us!

Mom and I walked towards her car. I sat down in the passenger seat and looked out at the window. I was still smiling, partly because the appointment, which I kinda dreaded, went pretty well and partly because of the beautiful man."he was a nice guy" she said and smirked at me "he thinks you're a nice guy too" I started blushing "why would you think that?" I asked and she gave me a look like 'it wasn't obvious'.

"Come on Harry you think its a nice guy too you where constantly staring at eachother"  I didn't answer and she laughed. "Mom, what if he noticed?" That would be so awkward. "I think he did honey, but he didn't look bothered at all so there's no need to worry." It seemed like she couldn't stop smiling."he was staring at you too, sometimes I felt a bit forgotten haha" I chuckled and looked at the paper for the new appointment 'next wednesday'

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It was now Wednesday and the week has flown by. Mom and I have spent some time together and even went bowling Saturday night.

So she dropped me of at the practice and I was now sitting in the waiting room,it was a bit wierd for me to be alone. Soon enough Louis came walking towards the waiting room. "Harry Styles, you can follow me." He said with a polite smile. I stood up and followed him to his room. He shook my hand and let me sit on the chair " Harry today I want to talk about how you are doing, like on the point " he smiled "okay, well I had the best 2 weeks in years and about all the things in the past I barely thought" he wrote something down and then looked up at me again. "Thats great Harry." He said smiling "but you said barely, when did you think about it?" When he asked this, his smile faded a bit. "Like when i'm in bed I think about that I could be the one that was killed or things like that " he didn't write anything down this time and stayed with his eyes on mine " Harry do you wanna tell me what you thought " I didn't have to think ,I could tell him this. "I keep seeing her death. We were in the van and they took out a gun and we-we couldn't do anything." I took a deep breath "they shot Harlene. They should've killed me. Harlene always did what they said she was so innocent and she had never done anything wrong, never." My hands were shaking and I was avoiding Louis' gaze. I was feeling so vulnerable. He layed his hand on my face to turn it around what made me red "Harry did you do things wrong?" I thought about that, did I disobey them well no but I did protest sometimes "yes" he didn't ask for what because he knew I wasn't ready to tell that "Harry are there things in that story that you haven't told anyone else?" "Yes, you're the first person I've told that I keep seeing her die and that I should be killed" he seemed to think about this for a second. "Why haven't you told anyone?" We where now both looking in eachothers eyes again "I didn't feel like it" he had this like really little smile for a second "are you comfortable with telling me that?" I am, almost too comfortable in such a shot period of time. "Yes, I am." Was all I said. "Who was harlene ?" He asked "a girl that was hostaged as well but a little later than me " he hesitated for a bit "do you know why she was hostaged?" I was thankful that he didn't ask me why we were hostaged. I'm definitely not ready to talk about myself and it was like he knew. "I'm not sure, I didn't even know why I was" he nodded "Harry I will do anything to help you I swear if there is anything bothering you, If you want to you can talk to me. I can make time for you like on every second of the day" I smiled at him "thank you so much." He nodded and looked at his watch "i'm sorry but I think our time is up. " he said disappointed.

I suddenly had the urge to hug him for this ,which I did.

And he hugged and it was a strong hug as I whispered "thank you for this I could finally tell someone that and it is very relieving " he wispered back that it was a honor and led me to the counter for the next appointment. We set it on next Wednesday, so there would be a week inbetween. He told me to call him when I felt the need to and then we said our goodbyes. I walked outside and waited for mom to pick me up.

She was there within a minute and I smiled at her which she returned "so did you have a nice time ?" It's kinda weird because it was an therapy session but I did have fun "I did actually,  Louis is a really great guy."

My mom headed back home and she asked me what I wanted to eat. Spaghetti. I just love that it's so tasty and just wonderfull.

After she cooked me the meal she sat down next to me on the couch "mom? I want to tell you something" she looked at me with a worried expression "what is is darling, are you ok?" I nodded " something about what happened like I just want to tell you this" she listened "when I got kidnapped I was not playing with that boy anymore" she looked confused so I took that as a sign to continue "I wasn't playing with Brandon anymore, I was walking home when two men approached me and they asked me where my mother was and I said that I was heading home to you and they said 'no' and grabbed me and I screamed, mom I screamed so hard just like you told me to do" I began to tremble slightly and my mom wrapped her arms around me and gave me a short hug. When she released me from the hug, she held my hands and asked if I wanted to continue, which I did."they told me it was no use,you weren't gonna hear me and if I didn't shut u-up they" I took a deep breath and swallowed the lump in my throat "they would kill me and then they would be after you. Then they said I had to do what they told me too and if I didn't they would punish me" she looked so shocked "what did they do when you disobeyed them?" She asked kinda hesitant. I didn't really want to tell her, I could already imagine the look on her face. " not ready" is all I said and she nodded and we ate our dinner.

After dinner I headed to my room and let myself fall on my bed. After the conversation with mom I couldn't stop thinking about it. I contemplated on calling Louis or not, I was pretty exhausted but I also did want to talk about it with someone. He said I could call him whenever..