Unity: A Clexa Fan fiction

Chapter 2

Clarkes POV

After the ceremony, I had said my goodbyes to my friends. I had fought back the tears, then i had eaten with the Commander and her people... well i guess they are my people now. I hadnt been hungry yet i ate out of respect. After the feast id asked Lexa if i could go for a walk, she had said, "Yes, Do not go to far it is not safe." then handed me my knife back. I walked so i was a reasonable distance away from the Grounder Camp then sat down. Tomorrow we would be leaving. I felt the tears come and for the first time i let them fall. I felt so alone. I had no one, No friends, No family and now i was married to a woman i didn't know and going to  a place that i knew nothing about. I doubted that i would have much privacy seeming as i had to share a room with Lexa. 

I don't know how long i sat there, tears streaming down my cheeks before i heard a snap. Someone was there. I retrieved my knife and looked around, it was Lexa. Trying to hide the fact that i'd been crying i wiped my cheeks and tried for a smile, "Lexa" i said in a shaky voice. She looked at me, sympathy in her eyes, "Its been hours, i came to check on you." I was stunned, "Why?" i asked. Lexa sat next to me, "Because we are unity partners, or as you would call it... Married." when I did not respond she added, "Clarke, This was hard for me so I can hardly imagine what you must be feeling." I looked at her, trying to understand why she was being so... so nice. "Is there someone else?" i knew she was referring to Bellamy, I did not like him in that way. Thinking of love made my heart ache. I was sure that i had been in love with Finn, then Raven came. Out of the ashes of both of our relationships a friendship had been formed, then Finn... Finn... died. I  

"There was." I Admitted, "but he died." 

A sadness passed through lexas eyes, "I was too was once in love, her name was Costia.  She was killed because i loved her. They cut off her head and sent it too me. She is why i can never love again." I let the words process. She was telling me that she could never love me. I sighed, there went my hope that one day I could love Lexa but i understood. When FInn had died i felt so hopeless, it hurt and i was starting to get over him. I could hardly imagine what it would be like to have someone who you were in love with killed and because they loved you.  

"What was it like?"  Lexa asked, genuinely curious. "Living in the sky, i mean." I looked at her and told her about it. The rules, the rations the ups and downs. In turn she explained Life as the Commander. I found myself sitting close to her, "You never said what you." Lexa said, "To get locked in solitary confinement." I smiled, "I wanted to tell the truth." Lexa stood up the offered me a hand, "Its late. we should probably get going."  I took her hand and walked with her, 

"Clarke i do not want you to feel like youre a prisoner." 

"So i could go and visit my friends?" I asked, Lexa was silent. 

"im afraid... that... i just...no" Lexa struggled to get the words out, "i mean in Polis i wanted to train you to be a warrior, you mentioned the fact that you wanted to be a healer- you could train in polis" I nodded and removed my hand from hers. "i- i would like that." 

"It is customary for the Commanders unity partner to advise them..." Lexa looked at me, "You saw peace when i couldnt and i think your ideas would help me." We reached the tent and i was surprisingly tired. Lexa looked at me, "If you want i can sleep on the floor." 

"No, its alright" i undressed with lexa turned away and laid down. Maybe it wouldnt be that bad.

Lexas POV

Before today i had seen clarke three times. I laid next to her whilst she slept, thinking about her. The first time i had seen her I was watching the Sky People, trying to decide if they were a threat, when one of the Sky People had been hurt. I remember watching Clarke, the only source of calm in a whirlwind of madness, I was surprised at how she approached the situation. With a iron fist and a concentration of steel. She had quickly patched up the boy and dealt with the panicked crowd. The second time I had seen her was when a second, smaller ship had fallen from the sky. I had been in the area with Aden and some of my Warriors I watched as Clarke had found the girl in the ship and her face when... I shook these thoughts away. I remembered the third time vividly. It had been past midnight and i was walking the woods, i had not realized that i had walked as close to the Sky People's camp as i was  until i saw her, Clarke. She sat by herself, tears in those blue eyes. I had wondered why she was there, what had upset her before i had to leave. 

 "So i could go and visit my friends?" That question haunted me. No, no she couldn't. I wanted Clarke to be happy with me. She could have asked me for anything. a study to paint, to be a medic, a warrior, anything but she asked for the one thing she could not have. I had to keep up the illusion that she wanted to be there. That she had servered the ties between her old people and gave her 100% to me and my people. Maybe in the future she could visit her friends.  I slowly drifted asleep, aware that the months ahead of me would be difficult.