American Love Affair

Chapter 7

*Trigger Warning*

" I don't want you." I whispered.

" Why did you freeze after I said that then?" He asked.

" I don't want you sexually okay!! I want you romantically!!! I like you okay!!" I shouted pushing out of his arms.

I may have a slight anger problem.

That's why I try to think happy thoughts.

He tried to grab my arm again but I ran away.

I ran out of the school yard and down the road back to my house.

Once I had gotten there I ran to my room and cried.

My anger got in the way of me in front of a guy I like.

(Close as Strangers just came on I literally am crying)

I sat I front of my bed and sobbed. " STUPID ANGER PROBLEMS!!" I kicked the wall in front of me.

It made a hole.

I stood up and walked to my bathroom.

I opened my cabinet and pushed past the pills I have for my anger problems.

I looked and there was my razor.

I pulled in out sat on the bath ridge.

I put the razor blade on my skin and sliced. 1,2,3 red dots formed and blood ran down my arm.

I smiled. I haven't don't this in months.

I then heard a gasp. The razor was taken out of my hand and flushed down the toilet.

My cuts were cleaned and bandaged.

I didn't want to look up at him.

" Why did you do this?" He asked crouching down in front of me.

" I knew I ruined my chance with you okay? I'm upset." I angrily yelled at him.

" Please don't do this to yourself." Calum said taking my hand.

" I can't keep that promise Calum." I cried wrapping my arms around him.

He held me rubbing my back.

" Phylicia do you have anger problems?" He asked.

I nodded my head yes.

" Did you take the medication you have today?" He asked I looked up at him.