Elysian

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I'm hiding the truth that I'm scared..

I promised I would stay. I will. I'm okay with just sticking around knowing you're happy with some other girl. But don't forget I love you, but you don't care.

Who cares how I feel? I don't even care what I feel anymore. I always looked forward to just talking to you. I looked forward to us. I realised I looked forward to nothing.

It feels like i'm dying of heartbreak, but at least you're happy, right? No matter how many times I say I'm happy that you're happy, I will never mean it. I want you to be happy with me.

My tears are a sea for you to swim in.
I just needed someone to need me.
I kinda knew we weren't meant to be. I knew our fate set that, but I knew you were the one for me. Even if I'm not the one for you.

I'm scared of losing you. Always have been.

I met someone who said they love me. He came and took my love from me. Now he wants to be free.
I'll never be the same because of a guy who I truly loved.

-Jess

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i'm at my aunts party, but i'm in my cousins room. trying to pretend like i'm happy. 💔