Love Myself

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I walk down the road to where the local shop is. I have so many memories of me and my friends coming down here after junior school, buying sweets and having fun. Back when I didn't care about what I looked like.

I walk in the shop door and go browse around the stuff.

I turn the corner and see AeRan, JooAh and HaYeon.

Oh no, maybe if I just turn around then they won't see me.

"Oh flabby, is that you?" JooAh says as she runs up to me.

"Ew, why the fuck would you be buying food, you don't need it honey, well I mean look at you" HaYeon walks up to me. As she is much taller, she looms over me and I just want to burst into tears.

"Well, I just...... thought that....i should go have a .... Um walk for... a bit" My words stutter out of my mouth, it's so humiliating.

"Good idea flabby, you need to do more exercise, uggh I can't even look at you."

Tears start falling out of my eyes as I believe every word she is saying.

I run out the shop crying, I need to go somewhere, anywhere.

"Bye bye Flabby!" says JooAh as she waves me out of the shop.

A memory flashes through my mind.

The park down the street was where I first met JeSung.

I run down the street and come towards it, tears still streaming down my face.

I see the bench near the tree which me and my friends carved our names into as early teens.

Slowly, I walk and sit down.

I think over how I hate myself, I hate my body, I hate my face.

My lips start singing gently, my voice still trembling from the thought inside my head.

A man comes and sits next to me, singing with me. I'm ashamed of my face, so I don't look up.

He has a very beautiful voice, I just.......forgot that I'm ugly. I look up and see Park Jimin sitting next to me singing softly with me.

He lifted his hand up to my face and wiped a tear from my cheek. As the song finishes I just stare in his eyes and he stares back into mine.

"Why are you crying?"

I'm still in disbelief that Jimin is sitting next to me. However his question reminds me.

"Because I'm ugly and I always will be"

"How dare you lie to me!" says Jimin to me with a smile.

"You are very beautiful, pretty girl stop crying it'll make me sad." I swipe my hands across me cheeks and remove my tears.

As soon as I do the clouds start to pour with rain.

Jimin laughs as we just sit there in the rain.

"I'm Jimin, by the way"

"Yeah, I know who you are, I'm a big fan. I'm Y/n as well"

"Well Y/n thank you for liking my music and it's a pleasure to meet you" Jimin pulls me into a hug.

As I sit back I see the rain dripping off his hair, he's so attractive.

"Y/n I think we should leave now since the heavens have opened above us."

"Yeah ok, do you want like a place to go right now?"

"No I don't actually, I kinda forgot to book a hotel around here so I had no clue what to do?"

"Erm, you could come round mine for a bit if you like?"

"Ok sure, but we'll have to run because it's really tipping it down now!"

Jimin took my hand as we both ran through the rain back to mine. 

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