Arranged HATE

[14] Confused

MANIK'S POV :

" Manik, didn't you ever notice me? Not even once? At least for a second? " I just looked at her in confusion.

" What have you loved in Soha that you didn't find it in me? You knew it from the start how much I love you, how much I wanted to talk to you, how much I wished to spend time with you. But you acted like you don't know anything. You literally ignored me each and every time. " she burst out in tears.

The thing that I'm the reason behind her every single tear that she shed, makes me feel pathetic.

" You have no idea how much I regret few things and now, I don't have any chance to change them. It was indirectly me who introduced you to Soha and now it's so heart breaking to see you both as a couple. Maybe I lack something that you want in the love of your life... that's how I convince myself every single day. I'm a mess, Manik. I don't know why I'm like this. Why I love you so--- " I couldn't watch her cry so bad right in front of me. I had to stop her.

I couldn't hold it any longer.

I kissed her.

I freakin' kissed Nandini, the one who always gets on my nerves, the one whom I hate to the core for some reason and the one who was my long time crush.

Yes, I used to have a crush on her. I hoped that it would someday change into love but it slowly moulded itself into hate.

Hatred dominated my love for her.

I don't know if it's her fault or mine. Sometimes I feel I'm having a wrong impression on her but sometimes I don't feel the same way. I'm always in a dilemma to figure things out and accept them.

» FLASHBACK «

" Nandini Murthy! Get out of my class. Quick! " I stopped on my way to the principal's room when I heard her name.
" and you. I don't think I specially need to tell you to get out. " the teacher shouted again. I peeped through the window into the 8-C classroom. The teacher pointed out at a girl. She has her glasses on and looked very innocent. I stood there wondering why someone like her is being punished.
Then there walked this girl out of the class, hanging her head down out of embarrassment. It was Nandini.
The other followed her out.

Nandini is sometimes a mischievous girl and the one next to her looks innocent. I've always seen them together, stalking me from a distance. They don't have any idea that I know them stalking me. It was always Nandini's plan to stalk me and the other girl always followed her. And even now it seems like they're caught because of Nandini's crazy things.

At first I thought to walk straight to the place I was going to but somehow I ended up being all shy? I don't know. I can't help but sometimes blush in front of Nandini.
She does nothing and I unknowingly blush.

I took the opposite way which was too long to reach the princy's room, thinking that's the best decision I've taken now.

I was done talking with the principal regarding my academics and I was going back to my classroom in a hurry when the bell rang. " It's just lunch break. I don't need to hurry." I thought as I slowly made way to my classroom.

" shh! He's coming. " I heard someone whisper.
I know who's that.
A small smile crept on my lips as I heard her whisper again. " Why is he so handsome? Oh my gosh! "
and again I blushed like an idiot.
Compliments are a common thing to me but I never get the feeling of being appreciated by anyone. But hearing those compliments from that exact person you wanna hear it, is special and needs to be treasured deep down inside your heart.

" Hey! You're not supposed to say that. That's my dialogue okay. seriously! Why is he so handsome? I think I'm gonna die someday because of too much handsomeness. " the whispers slowly turned into slightly audible chatters because of the unknown excitement.
But this time the voice was way too familiar.
" Why did he stop? Don't tell me he saw us! " the panic in her voice was clear. And then I understood the first person who spoke wasn't Nandini.
" Something's wrong. We need to escape before he sees us. " the slightly unfamiliar voice said and this time I got confirmed it was definitely the innocent girl who always tags along with Nandini.