Fuckboy But I Love Him

~CHÃPTRE 4~

Edward's POV:

The more I enjoyed that conversation -it actually made up my whole day- , the more I regretted even starting it cus now I have hundreds of questions but the main one is : Am I actually crushing on this angel wearing a mask of a human ?

I hope not, I don't really see myself dreaming about a girl and trying my best to reach her ,that sucks. -I'm fucked up -.

After that quick conversation, I walked to a coffee shop near my spot since I didn't have a breakfast and I'm pretty much starving .
I was sipping on my coffee when I spotted my -fuckin- ex sitting next to a middle aged man -wtf- .

They were disgusting , believe me I'm not jealous or any kind of this shit , and now she means NOTHING to me . He had a big moustache and a lot of hair on his revealed chest through that shitty T-shirt which is not even suiting his age , while she seemed to be his fucking daughter if they weren't grabing each others hands and feeding each other the pancakes -eww man ...-

I think that bitch wanted to have some money since she's broke and hopeless and she actually didn't find me useful enough to use me like a credit card and I don't think she actually even like this grandfather , GoD , she's 18 .
Expect of all that fucking flirting scene ,it frasturated me that she didn't even take some time to find another unlucky guy to use and she didn't even felt guilty about what she did to me - she was the only girl I ever started catching feelings for her - .That's why you kids must always thank jesus for saving you from fucked up situations even if you were assholes , I really feel like I'm free of this witch.

While paying my coffee and giving a tip to the old woman who keeps staring at me ,or through me and I feel like I'm getting naked by her eyes , I reached the handle of the door to leave but I find out that I got the attention of that hoe and she's glaring at me .

Really, I wasn't trying to do anything I just wanted to leave the shop peacefully but since I wanted to this for some wasted months of my life and it is now my actuall desire that I can never change it or control it I stepped towards her table while that stinky fat ass man is watching me in a confused face , I , without even
rethinking of it , I revealed my middle finger how used to be in her pussy some nights -I know ,eww, right?- and grabbed the glass of water to spill it all over her fake face full of make up . God , I felt so pretty good as if I'm high .

Looking at her with a devilish smirk , her head was completely wet and now her make up is all over her face -she was in a way scary, why the fuck did I dated this girl and even fucked her many times, eww.-
I felt the anger crossing her eyes and she had her mouth open in shock , and she was raising her hands in the air while watching me then watching her now soaked hair and tank top ,well she's lucky that she didn't see her face , otherwise , she would have a stroke or something.
-I'm an asshole , I know.-
I started walking towards the door without any word just a smooth smile and listening her screaming and "WTF'S" from behind but I didn't even gave a fuck even when she was saying things like "you fucking bastard" and "what an asshole" cus I know that what I just did was pretty correct even if it's devilish .

Well my happiness was interrupted when I started leaving the place and felt a grab on my shoulder so I just turned behind to see who , - are you fucking kidding me ?! Is that grandfather trying to start a fight now over this bitch?- I really didn't want to , I don't even know him and him too and my problem wasn't with him , it's with fucking "Tamara"-her name - but what should I do ?
He was trying to punish me in my face with his clenched fist so I just avoided him and just pushed him back so he gets the fuck off me but I think he was trying to show his precious hoe that he's not that old and he can protect her and that he still can fuck her - I'm so bad ,no need to tell- so he moved closer to me again with another fist but this time he kicked my fucking jaw so hard , I guess I'm not gonna forget what he just did , so I got my shit together and started giving him a punch ,than another one , and another one - I guess the anger got the best of me- ,I grabbed him by the shoulder to make him stand so I can punish him in his stomach but I was interrupted with two hands , one on my shoulder and the other one on my chest.

I chuckled of the soft touch of two little  ,cute hands before turning behind to -fuck - see "Kayce"  trying to calm me down by saying " pleeease ,stop."by a soft voice that can calm a fucking hulk in a few minutes , why the fuck is she doing this ?! -this girl must be an angel- .

Under her beautiful spell , I let go the motherfucker which fell on the ground and "Tamara " was helping him to get on his feet  -Shit , I didn't curse after saying "Tamara" ,  I'm really calmed down by a touch of "Kayce" ,well, WTF?! -

And what made me even feel butterflies on my stomach , is when she grabbed me by my wrest and walked me out the shop and I was following her like a little bitch .
She didn't say any word until we reached a bench on a park -Well, what?!! - .

Actually, me either I didn't even say a word maybe because I felt ashamed that she saw me in that situation , it's really not a good reputation to show to your crush .
Wait ...Wtf am I just thinking about ??! Crush ?!! HELL , NAHHH.

Feeling my fucking cheeks redden - am I blushing ?! This body is fucking controlling me , I'm not the one who wants to blush or thinking shit like crushing or I'm not the one who want to keep looking at a girl for years ,hell no...- I started making my mind stop those thoughts and working on even looking at her in the eyes while we were sitting on the bench and she was still holding my wrist as if I'm a fucking spoiled kid who gets grounded by his mom. -I kind of like her soft hands brushing against my skin .SHUT UP FUCKING MIND.-

And then , I started feeling her gaze and the awkwardness between our faces which are only few inches away to each other. So I slowly raised my face to look at her hazel , beautiful, eyes and without even planning to , I found myself looking at her lips like a fucking desperate slut

.But I don't think she realized but I started looking away to keep my eyes away from her pink soft lips and her hazel eyes cus it is bad to do that.

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Heyy guys!
I updated agaiiin

This one was longer than the others but truly idk about it , lol.

Well since I don't have much readers , I'm still thinking of deleting this story idk...

I hope u enjoy it guys .Goodbye!