Days and months had passed and my brother became busy being a trainee. I barely saw him, he is now living in Seoul while I am left alone at home.
Every time that I'll miss him I'll just mumble to my self.
"Its okay, Its alright. I know I can handle, I'll support him no matter what."
I learned to be independent, yet I was still hoping that he can at least had a day off and go home and make me food. I miss his cooking a lot.
I miss him, like every time I say I miss him, I'm missing him more. Maybe because this is the first time we got separated for so long.
He also never forget to call me every night asking my day and vice versa. That's the only communication I have with him.
I sometimes cried while talking to him because at some point, I feel so alone in this lonely house without my family with me. That's also the first time he went back home even its midnight just to comfort me with sweet words only a brother can give.
He even say that he is willing to give this opportunity up so I won't be alone, but I said no this is his dream so he must fulfill it. I don't want to be a hindrance.
I promised that I'll support him no matter what happen. And he promised me to be the best brother.
I already met his future band mates I guess they're nice? I never really talk to them because I don't want to. I got scolded once when I didn't answer and said something bad on one of his group mates question, that Taehyung oppa is weird he keeps on nagging me that's why I said something bad to him.
"Get lost you are so annoying!" I told him and he was taken aback. Oppa heard that and scolded me in front of them. I saw pity in their eyes and I hate it. I was forced to say sorry to that Taehyung and everything went back to their work after that.
I envy them so much. They were able to spend more time with my brother, play with him and eat what he cooked. I hope that they will respect my brother as much as I respect him.
Seeing them playing with each other makes my heart hurt so much. I hope I can be here with my brother too.
"Why are you crying?" Someone from my side asked me.
"I am not" I said denying it.
"If you say so" he said. I think his name is Yoongi? He never really talk that's why I choose to sit beside him after that forced apology.
"Don't worry Jin hyung misses you too" out of nowhere he said and closed his eyes as if he didn't say anything.
After that one whole day being with him and his band mates I went home alone and sleep.
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From that day on, my brother becomes more busier. They already had a twitter account and they update their life there which is also convenient for me.
As the debut day becomes closer and closer. My brother seems to forget about his only family left. He never called me and answer my call but he still post a lot of pictures with his group on sns. I hate it.
I don't know when did it start.
But I'm starting to hate him and his band mates so much.
I should not feel hatred towards them but I can't help it. They are taking my brother away from me.
I hate them. I hate you oppa!
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