I received no calls and text from my brother and it hurts so bad.
I know he's busy but can he atleast say hi to her depressed sister?
This anxiety is killing me now.
I miss my parents, my halmeoni, my brother and all of them left me alone..
I hate life.
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On their debut day someone knocked on my door, and in hope that it's my brother I immediately opened it only to see the old man who recruited my brother.
"What are you doing here sir?" I asked confused.
"Your brother told me to pick you up so you can attend the debut of bangtan" he said while fixing his eye glasses.
"Uhm, I'm sorry sir but I don't feel good today , tell my brother that I can't come, if you'll excuse me, I need to rest. Have a safe trip back" I bowed and closed the door.
After closing the door, I immediately went to my room to sleep.
I am not actually feeling ill, I just don't have the eagerness to go there. He would be busy anyway, so, why waste my time to go and watch their performance? Maybe I'll just check it later.
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I woke up around 9 pm, and that was way too long. Usually I'll wake up around 5 or 6 after a nap, yes a nap.
When I went down to grab something to eat, I heard noises from outside, it's not tolerable it's really noisy.
When I was about to open the door to see who's making noise and to politely ask them to keep quiet, someone hugged me from behind that made me screamed and I think the noises stopped.
I keep on removing the hand from the back but it won't let go, then suddenly that someone spoke.
"It's me Soojin, it's oppa"
"Oppa?! Why would you do that?! you can just call me or what. You don't have to scare me!! You know how much I hate being surprised!" Then I started to sob, I really thought it was someone I don't know.
Then suddenly the door opened and I saw his band mates entering the house.
"Hyung what happened?" that weird guys asked
"I scared her a little, I forgot she hates being surprised" he answered with a chuckle.
He.. he forgot?
"Hyung how can you forget about that, pabo!" That jungkook guy said.
Yes! he really is an idiot, how can he forget about what her ONLY sister hates?!
He was still hugging me when I pushed him.
"I'm going to bed" I said with my stone cold voice
"But you haven't eaten yet" he said thinking that everything is still okay
"I'm not hungry" I turned my back and started to walk when he speak
"Soojin, I'll be staying here only for tonight." He said with a sad tone almost begging
"Okay, enjoy" I said, not being swayed
"Soojin" he again called my name, begging me to stay with him but I can't.
"What!" I asked slightly irritated
"Please?" He held my hand, still begging but I pushed it away
"Go! play with your band mates and forget everything about me".I half shouted and started to go upstairs and heard him say my name again
His band mates are in the state of shock and can't speak.
"Soojin.."
I looked back at him with a hateful eyes and I told him.
"I hate you".
C4
