I feel alone, maybe I am, and even if I know I'm not, I am because nothing will change if I can't believe it myself. And I won't, I will never cause no matter how many people talk to me, acts say more than words. My friends are telling me to just talk to them, but how, I feel like they don't care. Nobody will have the feelings I do, what I feel is the strangest and can't be felt by anyone else...That makes me feel even more lonely and I wonder what is going on! It's to suspicious to say there are open arms for me, like why? Said I'm the strangest cause I feel like it, have you ever seen the society ignoring the fact one is different,strange in that case? Not really, the reason why I just can't understand people would be here for me. And the fact I smile while feeling bad gives me even more the confirmation I can't talk to anyone. Maybe it is because I know it's better than being sad, being quiet. Maybe I just run away from the pain and realization because of fear. And loneliness is fear. It comes crawling out of the fear, and then suddenly floods it.
