Pomegranate Seeds at Modnight

XXV

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I was naive,
that I was open to you and only you,
that I trusted my demons enough to spill their dark secrets,
that I let myself become submerged into the pit of darkness and refused to grab ahold of your rope until it was too late.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I was rude,
that I was ever annoying to you,
that I was ever the reason you wept at night,
that I wasn't strong enough to fight my demons.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I allowed our friendship to crumble before our eyes,
I'm sorry that I allowed myself to cave into my thoughts,
I'm sorry that you were the one I let slip away.

I'm sorry... I'm sorry I'm not normal, that I'm not the picture-perfect friend. I miss you.