yikes there's my emotions

why am i crying

i literally don't even know why i'm crying like i'm not even sad wtf im so angry about this like go away

so today we had a pep rally and basically my friends were screaming in my ears and i wanted to stand next to my quieter friend because my social battery was dead. so i think i might have feelings for him now and i want to die because he's fucked me over so much and if i do then i can't tell him that i like him because then things will get weird between us and i don't want to not be able to platonically flirt with him right and like HucjfjvjNsijjJjAIfvUfVvVjgigbKbibih

and also i might not have feelings cuz it could be nostalgia and i don't want to bring those feelings back and as soon as we stopped talking earlier i realized this and i don't want to develop feelings because he hurt me so much and on top of that like i'm a strong lady with my own shit to do i have no time for men anymore tf like go away feelings i have shit to do fuck you idc were only friends with benefits and i ain't about ruining a good thing and i can't even date him anyway cuz my family hates him for fuckng me over and i am not ok