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It'd been half an hour since he'd left Calum's apartment, he'd made it around the block before he'd managed to put his shoes on and was on the train before he realised his shirt was caught in the zipper of his pants. He was in a state of complete disbelief, part of him had thought that Calum would have at least said something. To be fair to the other boy he had come out of nowhere with his omission, they barely knew each other if he were honest, which was even more terrifying. 

Luke pulled out his phone thinking he should at least make sure his mum was home before he took the train all the way out there, even though he was already twenty minutes deep in the journey.  

 Calum Hood 

I shouldn't have just let you leave 

Calum Hood

I was just really surprised; you don't seem like the type to want a relationship, you aren't even out 

 Calum Hood 

I know I like you, but I don't know if that's what I want right now

 Calum Hood 

Also, what would your family think? Me with two of you?

He didn't reply; he didn't have anything worth saying right now. His brain fuzzing, blurring knowing that he was never going to get what he wanted or even what he needed from life living in the closet. It was a scary world out there, people were better, better than they'd probably ever been but the world was still full of dicks, full of people that just weren't willing to try and understand and those worse than them who wouldn't understand and often felt the need to take matters into their own hands. His parents would never be those people, but his parents were friends with those kinds of people, it was almost guilt by association in his mind, and that's how he thought their friends would feel when they found out they had two faggot sons.

He still found it in himself to go, to get off the train and walk the few blocks between the station and his parent's house and when she opened the door he collapsed straight into his mother's arms. He engulfed her entirely, he was far too tall to be leaning on his mother the way he was, but she's strong, she can handle the weight letting him hold her tight. They stood there in the doorway, door open to the street and she didn't ask him to move or try and pull away until he did, and when he did she saw the tears in his eyes, not falling but ready to cascade with even the slightest provocation.

She closed the door and lead her youngest son into the living room. Another ten minutes of silence before Luke finally tried to speak, "I-I'm just going to talk for a little bit and I'll tell you when I'm done and then, then you can tell me what you think okay?" she just gave him a reassuring nod and then he spoke again, "So, Calum, Ben's ex-boyfriend. He and I had met before he met Ben, and, and well we, we" Luke made a 'you know' gesture before he sighed, "had sex, before he and Ben got together, but we lost contact and then we saw each other here again and I realised I really liked him. Then I messaged him and he asked me why I wasn't out to you guys and then he broke up with Ben and I asked him if we could meet up and we did and he said that there was no way we were going to end up... doing it again and then we nearly did this afternoon and I stopped him and said that I really cared about him and then he didn't say anything and I left. I know it's dumb to have feelings for someone I really don't know, but he text me when I was on the way over here and he said that I was in the closet and that you guys would hate it that he'd been with both of us and that I didn't seem the relationship type, which is only true because I hadn't come out to you guys, and I guess this is me coming out to you. I'm gay if you hadn't guessed,"  

"Aw darling, why have you had this bottled up so long?" his mother chided, pulling him into her arms as the tears fell down her cheeks, sparking Luke to do the same as he hugged her. "You can tell me anything, anything, I don't care I'll always love you,"

A loud sob came from Luke, "I know but I was scared, I know that people give you guys a hard time because of Ben and I thought it'd just get worse and I didn't want to come out and then realise I was wrong and have everyone hate me," 

"We'd never hate you, it's okay to not be sure, that's fine. And as for Calum, it sounds like he's a very smart young man, he's obviously trying to look out for himself, not in a bad way but I'm sure he's been in or seen similar situations before. It's very hard having to keep other people's secrets and be their crutch,"

When everyone was together for dinner that night, Luke told them. Not everything just that he was gay too and he was sorry for thinking that they wouldn't love him anymore, and they all hugged him, each offering their own piece of advice or words of kindness. Ben took him aside at the end of the night and told him 'The world is always a better place when people come forward and say who they are' which would have been perfect if he hadn't followed it up with, 'I'm pretty sure I stole that from an episode of Brooklyn nine-nine, it's still true though,'

The pit in Luke's stomach had returned that night, he really was going to try and date Ben's ex, he was kind of the worst brother. He checked his phone for the first time in hours silently scolding himself for not replying to Calum earlier. 

Calum Hood

I'm sorry if that's not what you wanted to hear but don't just not reply 

New Message

Sorry, I just went and came out to my family. I also told my mum everything about us. She understands 

Calum Hood 

Wow it's been a big day for you 

Calum Hood 

I stand by what I said though 

New Message 

I didn't just do this for you; I did this for myself too 

New Message

If you still want just to hang out, I'm up for that :)

Calum Hood 

That'd be nice

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Dedicated to mooncqke