Cry to the Blue Moon [FINISHED]

Introduction

It came down as if I had eaten a lot or that I am sick. However, nothing ever really came out. It's as if telling me that there's an excess of air in my system...not the air when you are being so sure of yourself but the literal air itself. This feeling or symptoms comes out as a sign for me to think and slow down. It's not because I am going way too fast. But because I have to calm my brain activities especially my hypothalamus and the glad that releases sad hormones if there is one. This feeling only means one thing - anxiety attack and if this continues, my depressive moments will hit back...again.

I have already realized my symptoms. It's pretty easy actually. I wonder why I wasn't able to realize it five years sooner. Maybe I might be able to counterattack it back then and not have to go through with what I do.

The first attach is feeling so nostalgic - nostalgic about something that you never know what. It's always accompanied by emptiness. Have you ever experienced those moments wherein you felt like you are alone even if you laugh and is around people? Like you are with them physically but then you really are not? It's different from being socially accepted but somehow the lines in feeling them kinda intersect.

Oh! I haven't introduced myself yet didn't I? My bad. My mind's working faster than my hands could actually write them. My name is Raia. I'm 29 years old and currently working as a Recruitment Specialist in one of the companies here in Makati. Just call me Raia. This is the only way I can share my thoughts anyway. My real thoughts. Cause once you know who I am, my defense mechanism will automatically kicks in.

Shit! Gotta go. My break's almost over. I can't afford my boss to see doing this.