Cry to the Blue Moon [FINISHED]

Attack from the Inside

For a while, I thought everything's going fine. I was doing the same things I used to do before. I was able to go back to my books and I enjoy reading again. I was able to eat almost the same amount of food I used to eat. I was able to maintain my schedule for the past two weeks. I am starting to have a control over my life again. Then this night, it visited me again.

I was already asleep by that time but then, I suddenly got waken up by something. My body tells me that it wants to go back to relax itself again. My mind keeps telling me that I am so tired and that it wants to rest. But the thoughts suddenly swim back to my mind...again. Those things that I am solving during my conscious state crawls back while I am trying to rest and find the energy to fight another day. Those moments that I want to forget. Those failures that I keep on trying to overcome.

My stomach starts to churn again. As soon as that one word creeped into my mind, everything comes back and relaxed mind starts to fully function again even though it is so tired...like dead tired. My head starts to ache again, and no matter how much I try to relax, everything seemed to be in full mode at that 3 in the morning. My mind gets tired when the morning comes. When the light from this morning strike my window, the eyes suddenly dropped, my muscles started to relax and my mind felt a sudden exhaustion. I wasn't yet in that REM stage when my alarm starts to buzz.

It took me a while before I finally able to accept to myself, I can't face the world today. I got another set of worries to add on the mountain that I currently have.