Lost Love

Chapter 17: Catalaya's POV

6 Weeks Later

I wake up to the smell of pancakes, eggs, sausage and grits being made. I roll over and feel wetness and sigh before looking at the clock to see that it's Saturday 9:00am. My doctors appointment is at 2:00pm. There's a knock on my bedroom door and I yawn before telling them they can enter.

"Bitchhhh as much as Justin fuckin annoys me, this motha fucka can really throw down in the kitchen." He says eating a sausage link. "Girl please get back with him. Just so we can use him for his cooking skills. You don't even gotta sleep with him just tell him that you forgive him and that you wanna be with him." I roll my eyes and shake my head at Marcus's antics.

"Marcus can you pass me my pills please?"

"Nah boo not till you eat first. Come on get up before I gotta send Justin in here." I mean mug him and he just chuckles. I throw a pillow at him and it hits him in the head.

"Oh hell naw. Justin! Justin come get ya woman! She bein rude and disrespectful!" I hear his heavy footsteps come to the door and I sigh.

"Haha you in trouble now girl." I roll my eyes.

"What's wrong Cat?"

"Nothing."

"Justin she need help getting out the bed. She just bein prideful. Also, ya need to tell her that she can't take her pills until after breakfast." Justin just smiles and shakes his head.

"Marcus give us a minute. Matter fact can you turn down the heat on the stove for the grits and put the sausages on a plate man?"

"Yea I gotchu."

"Aye don't be eating up the sausages either."

"Aight." Marcus says before walking out and closing the door behind him.

"Aight now let's get you up so we can get you in the shower, change ya bandages and put ya ointment on." He says as he begins to pull my covers back.

"Justin I-"

"Shit." He looks up at me and sighs. "It's gonna be ok Cat. Let's get you up so I can get you in the shower help you wash and then I'll wash the sheets. Aight?" I just nod my head and slowly get up. Justin puts his arm out for me to hold onto as we slowly walk to my adjoining bathroom.

"You still having nightmares huh?" I just nod.

"You still trying not to talk to me huh?"

I shrug my shoulders as we enter the bathroom. He helps me sit on the toilet and then turns the shower on. I watch as he gauges the temperature with his hand.

"Aight Cat, we gotta take your clothes off and take the bandages off."
I nod again and slowly take off my shirt revealing the bandage around my stomach. Then Justin helps me up and I hold onto the wall as he helps me step out of the soiled shorts I was wearing. This is normal to him now. He's been staying with Marcus and I in New York to watch over me. He's even moved Sky and his Grandma out here. He's apologized for sleeping with T and other women once he found out I left. I don't really care anymore I'm just tired and sad. It's difficult for me to do a lot and I have nightmares often and I pee in the bed. It's embarrassing and makes me feel like a child. I've been doing physical therapy as well as seeing a psychiatrist and my doctor after I was released from the hospital. Nothing has really improved I have no motivation to do much of anything. I deferred from Columbia and I stay in a dark room most of the time. There's days I go without eating. Marcus and Justin moved in with me because I tried to overdose. Marcus came to my place and found me on the floor in my living room passed out. After that day they created a schedule and they try to make sure that I'm somewhat active. I don't talk much to either of them I just make facial gestures or movements. I know deep down somewhere I'm still in love with Justin it's just hard to access that with all of this pain I'm feeling. So I do what I do best, I shut down.