The Styles' Life

13.| Back For You

Edward's POV

It's been five months that Janelle has been taken away from me, it honestly feels like years that we've been apart. I've been sober for a month or longer, it's not because I wanted to stop drinking. It's because I drank all the liquor that Anne had in the cellar. I've tried to find a way to drink 'cause I keep seeing Janelle in such an awful way and I don't want to see her like that, I want to remember her good and well, how beautiful she was to me and like when we were still together, not apart.

All I have left of her are memories and pictures, also a shirt she left in my room once. Although the memories are happy they're also painful. I'm not going to lie that I've dreamt about our happy, loving moments together that I wouldn't want to wake up from those dreams. I wish I could get her back. But sadly I don't know where she went, I can't contact her in any way. I wonder if after all this time she still thinks of me. She's probably trying to forget me.

Zayn has been telling me to stop being so depressed and locked in my room. He wants me to distract myself, he understands how much I miss her but I still need to go out and not be stuck in one place. I know he's right but I feel like it's wrong to have fun if I don't have Janelle beside me, Zayn told me that's not true, that just because I'm having fun doesn't mean I can't miss her at the same time. Zayn says that missing someone while you're busy having fun means that you truly love that someone.

Zayn finally convinced me to go out so tomorrow night we're going out to have some fun, but not do dirty things of course, it's just to get shit out of our heads for awhile, even if I'm out, she'll still be running through my mind. But tomorrow isn't just the night of me finally having fun again but the day of fourth year anniversary of me and Janelle being together. You know I would honestly give anything to have her here, at least for a night, just one more time to see her, to hear her voice, to hold her in my arms and kiss her once more.

Gosh, I miss her.

Liam's POV

"Liam! Niall is at the door" I hear my mum yell from downstairs

"I'm coming" as I head down stairs I could hear Janelle playing the piano from across the hall, she's utterly amazing.

"Liam, the man I was looking for" Niall says holding a football (soccer ball)

"What's happening man" I ask.

"I was wonderin' if you want to maybe play football with me and Ashton? And maybe Janelle could join us too" he looks at me waiting for my answer.

I inwardly cringed at the mention of Ashton. Not to be mean but Ashton kind of gives me the creeps for some weird apparent reason. I don't really say anything about it because he's Niall and Janelle's friend. Like don't get me wrong I think he's a nice guy but I don't know, there's something about him that sometimes gives me goosebumps and not in the good way.

"Of course, why not I finished my homework already, I'll just go see if Janelle is up for it, since she's practicing" I point to the stairs.

"Great, we'll be waiting" Niall smiles and runs to where Ashton and two other guys are.

I shut the door and run upstairs to put on some athletic clothes on and then go get Janelle. By the time I had reached the family room, I see that she's done. But she's just sitting there in front of the piano with her head hanging down. I go sit next to her and bump my shoulder against hers.

"What's up with you?" I ask her.

"Hmm, is that even a question anymore?" she smiles but it fades away quickly.

"Well it depends." I say smiling.

"True but, ehh." She shrugs.

"C'mon what's running through that head of yours?" I poke her side.