today my cat wanted to come inside but i couldn't let her. i was sad because when i tried to pet her she desperately tried to get inside the house
a bit of background so y'all don't call me an abuser or smth:
this cat was born by a stray cat and raised as a stray until she was about eight or nine weeks old. that meant that she wasn't what you could consider a "family pet". she never used the litter box despite us trying to train her, she was extremely tiny and fast and could fit into super small places and always got herself into trouble, and she was also super violent and attacked us.
she was a very nice cat and would cuddle with you and lick you and just be very nice. but she also fought with the other cat and hurt people when we tried to get her to stop. and she would get scared very easily and when she did she would hunt you down and pretty much game end you
because of this we put her outside so she could live happily not as a house cat because it was kinda obvious that she didn't get along well with a house environment or other cats.
so now she lives in our backyard under the porch and comes up for pets, food and water
and when i tried to pet her for the first time since she went outside, she tried so hard to get in and i felt so bad that i had to lock her out
