Swearing that you are happy when you are not isn't easy. We should get a Emmy for best actor for putting on a show. Depression hit me with a ton of bricks. I was lost. I lost myself when I was playing the leading role of someone who was happy. I fell for a girl who I know I wouldn't in any life have a chance with. I fell hard. Making sure she was okay, spending pretty much my last paycheck on her so she could have snacks. Then she said "I don't want a relationship". It's like someone ripped your heart and just stomped on it right in front of you. So I tried to get away but, I got pulled back. I just keep getting pulled back into her games. I told her I was thinking about switching schools. She got mad. Then, we faded. She said it was my friend's fault why we can't stand each other. I asked why and then she ended the conversation. I am broken in many ways it's just I carry my heart on my sleeve and people keep using me.
I am broken.
- Norma 😴
