A bitch has been though a lot just at being 16. My grandma went to the hospital 4 times this year. Had a mild stroke on the left side of her body, she had pneumonia, a side affect from her medication, and heart problems. October 4th we lost a family member this year. I learned that I have a big heart & nobody could take that away. I learned that you need to let things out and talk but, I don't. I almost lost myself & I did. I cried myself to sleep for months & nobody knew. I put on a show & everybody believed it. I know in my heart and in my soul that I am not okay. I am not the happy bitch I always portrayed to be. It hurts you know. Having people tell me that I'm changing when in my heart I don't want them to find out. I bottle everything up in my heart knowing I shouldn't. I don't want them to find out. They don't truly know that they are hanging around a sad girl
