Welcome To Hell .6 (Growing up Series)

Am I doing this right?

Some Days I wonder if I'm doing this all right. 
Can I  hold her hand?  Will she hate me if I do? 
Can I kiss her,  will she run away?  Am I aloud to just lay in her arms,  or will she pull away and leave?

Idk what love is, idk if I'm doing this right at all to be honest. All I know is my emotions are all over the place when I'm with you. But I love it.

I am scared to say I love you,  so I do things to show you.  I am scared to be affectionate, because I fear rejection.

Yet I feel safe with you, even when we do hug for a short time. I want you to never let me go.. I want you to miss that bus and just stay there hugging me. I know it's selfish, but you're so warm and smell nice.