Sworn to Secrecy

Broken

I checked my phone, and the text read "get a life, your not wanted here. Stop trying so hard, you will never be perfect. -xoxo Mary"

My heart dropped, my head was pounding. Is it true? Am I that horrible? Maybe I don't deserve to live anymore, if I was gone no one would care. I ran to the bathroom and let it out. Then I heard a voice. It was deep for a girl, so I looked through the stall. It was Bryce, my crush since the first time I laid eyes on him. He lives on my street, I've known him since I was young. He makes my heart flutter. When I'm done daydreaming about my hopeless love, I wonder why he's in the girls bathroom. Then it hits me- holy crap I'm in the BOYS bathroom. I guess I was crying so hard, I wasn't paying attention.

The second bell rings, indicating that I'm late for class. When Bryce finally leaves, I manage to sneak out unnoticed. Running to class, I realize Mary takes this too. My eyes are still red and puffy, I can't let her see me like this. But I'm already late enough as it is. Okay, I need to be focused. I'm going to walk in the classroom with my head held high. Then I reconsider my choice, why am I so confident? Finally after debating my choices, I walk in, with my head held.... low. I just can't, the feeling of pure hatred in the room suffocates me. I can't breath, my anxiety is getting the best of me. Before I know it, I collapse into a heap on the floor.

I wake up to my parents and a bunch of doctors around me. Apparently, my blood level dropped, due to stress, and I fainted. I feel horrible, my insides are churning. Why me? I always bring the worst things upon me. My mother gives me a kiss and hands me my phone, I've been in the hospital for two days now. I check my notifications and texts. Expecting feel better texts, I'm shocked to see hate. Comments suck as "she wants attention", "faker", "I hope she's dead", "Mary's right, she is such a loser". Oh. This is how the world sees me.