50 shades of Jerika~A high school story ( discontinued )

bye :(💛

hey guys .

PLEASE READ ALL :(

um this is so hard to write. i'm crying while typing i feel like i've let all of you down. and i didn't think i'd be doing this for a long time. i don't really know how to tell you all this. so i'm going to just blurt it out, ok so basically i'm leaving wattpad. i will no longer be continuing my books. i've been avoiding writing this because it's so hard for me to be saying this. wattpad was such a huge part of me to be honest. this showed me a side of myself i didn't know i had. it showed me what a passion for writing i had. yea i knew i loved writing ever since i was little but those were just school topics. but here on wattpad i got to use my creativity in a whole different way. i got to write fun teen romance stories about people i loved dearly. and this all began when i found out about jake paul and the rest of team 10 i instantly loved the vibes since i was going through a very hard time and they all just made me smile for at least 10 minutes a day. they made me laugh and smile and just feel happy like i was before. then came summer of 2017 ( i think ? ) when jerika and chessa were a thing. i loved the idea of jake and erika so one day i decided to download this app since i heard people of all fandoms wrote about couples or their idols. so i read a couple of fanfics and i loved it so one day it inspired me to write my first story and people liked it surprisingly so i released another then another and people kept reading and supporting. and seeing everyone's comments about my stories made me flash the brightest smile. i loved writing for everyone! like who would've thought that people would actually like my stories. i wasn't doing it for anything but the fun of it. not to mention i also met some amazing people! and even though we didn't know each other in real life we were able to connect through youtubers we adored and that was the absolute best! but sadly ( even before jerika spilt up ) i noticed i was starting to grow distant from jake and the team. i just didn't feel the same vibe yes i loved them all still but i just wasn't feeling it. my mental health was also at its worse then and it was so hard to write for you when i was not even the slightest happy. i just wanted to be gone from the world. not even wattpad would help, it just created more stress since my writing schedule was so bad so i would feel like i was letting everyone down especially since my chapters had to be 1000 words or longer and i was determined to update every 3 days but i couldn't do it. i had no motivation or time. now after many months since i've gone MIA i  realized it was NOT all just my mental health it was me as well. i was loosing all interest in jake and team 10. they're content wasn't for me. i'm growing older and more mature and i didn't find much joy in the videos. so because of that, my stories would be actual trash. i mean they were already becoming just that i had crazy writers block. and i'd rather just not write than give you guys crappy chapters. so this is my goodbye. anyways i hope you all understand! i had so much fun with all of you and surely DO NOT regret writing here. opened many new doors for me. i love you all and will miss you ~ gwen ✨

also i still don't know if i will delete my stories or leave them here so please comment what i should do.

i'm sorry i've let you all down but please understand. i'm still not in a great state of mind.

BTW : if any of you would like to stay in touch i would love that! i can give you guys my social media's so we can text :) just dm on here.

💕🤧 I LOVE YOU ALL GOOD BYE 🤧💕