I went to a new school, miles away from home. Pure Responsibility became my first born at that moment.
New school, new environment, new transport, new faces. "Everything just new!"
New-commers had always been the boys' target. It was not easy, but I had to adjust.
It did not take me a split second to become friends with everything, but not everyone. Several different boys started placing in CVs. "I rejected."
I was in a state of too much freedom and some srews in my head got loose. Later the seventh grade, the very same year, I accepted a CV from Justice.
One week later, he intoduced me to a relationship template. He asked me to prove if I loved him. "That was a kiss he asked for." I agreed because I loved him so much. That afternoon I had to meet him afterschool I started being nervous and feeling somehow. "It was going to be my first kiss." It was hard but it became really easy.
I was head over hills with this guy. We finished the seventh grade and we had to scatter. We were going to different places for high school. Our love became even stronger, communication became tight. We dated so long, it was nearly 3 years. That was until early the tenth grade when we broke up beacuse of religion.
As different as I was because I was not a christian, I wasn't good enough. "That really hurt me."
Anyway somehow this made me realise that I was worth more, and deserved more. I never became angry at the guy, for all I knew and hoped that the best was still coming.
My diary that I kept since the seventh grade, I finally burnt it. A fresh start was definitely what I needed.
I started having a personal human diary. That was way too crazy. I knew my journals were safe with that person because I also became that person's diary.
For that long period I lived by the motto of 'PATIENCE'.
It kept me going even though at other times I felt that I could not take it anymore.
My diary and my best friend helped me through out. One of the words that touched me until this present day were:
"Never judge a person until you have walked a mile in their shoes. Why didn't one warn me, leave with a lesson or stay with a blessing."
At the moment I left with a lesson.
