I can feel you slowly slipping away from my fingertips. The words spoken to each other dropped from 200 conversations to only 3 words.
You go from meeting someone new, interesting and erotic feelings, to receiving their number with excitement, texting them every night with bright smiles and loud giggles, texting every morning and calling every night, sending pictures, speaking of the future, planning dates, saying "I love you."
Then it suddenly stops....the conversations grow short, you stop receiving morning texts and soon stop hearing their voice every night. You're confused at what had happened, blaming yourself or looking for answers as if you said something to set them off. But you find nothing.
The feeling as if they don't love you like they once did...they lost interest and found someone else to call their own. Someone else they're sending morning texts to and calling to explain how long and miserable their day was.
I can't tell you what hurts the most.... Losing someone to silence, or losing someone with spoken words.
At least with one you know, the other you're left feeling confused. But they both hurt.
And that is why I must move on from you. Even if you still have feelings for me, even if I am overreacting towards everything. I can't be stuck feeling alone and dealing with sorrowful silent nights when you can't even have enough energy just to text me a simple "Goodnight." Something to let me know you're still thinking about me and everything is okay.
I miss you so very much, and it kills me every day when I have to fight myself not to text you or let you know just how much I miss you. I hope you understand, and I hope you find someone that will make you so happy that you will ALWAYS talk to them. Even when you're so busy you literally can't text them but you take the risk for just a few seconds to let them know how much you love them and how you're willing to risk everything to see them or to hear a word from them.
I want you to know that I will be just fine. I'll make it through life and hopefully find someone one day that will make me very happy just as I hope the same for you. We might've been perfect for each other, or we might've not been. It's okay, that's life and we will move on no matter what. We will never know.
