Indigo rain *ON HOLD*

CHAPTER 6

*INDIGOS POV*

it's been a week since I've talked to Q. he's called but i just can't bring myself to answer. He showed up at my house so I'm kinda forced to talk now.

"Come in" I said motioning towards the couch

"so we ignoring folks now?" he said with anger in his voice

it Hit me fast I had to end this. I can't believe I'm really about to do this. I'm not ready to start over but it's like everything started replaying In my head . The lies, the abuse, the cheating. the whole time I've been in a relationship with myself. I waisted two and a half years on him.

"Look Q, we're over" I said with so much courage. I looked up and his hand connected to my face. I hit the floor with a thud. I kept telling myself down cry but I couldn't hold it back. I looked up at him with fear in my eyes. "Shit baby I'm sorry" he said trying to grab me. I pulled away getting up "bitch come here" he yelled once again angry I tried to run to my room but he grabbed me. we fought and he dragged me up the stairs. "Q stop I'm sorry!" I yelled for forgiveness. he wasn't listening. he pinned me down on my bed and with another slapped yelled "shut up" he forced himself into me with him hand over my mouth. all I could do was cry

once he was done he left. the boy I thought I loved who I thought loved me just raped me. I crawled to the bathroom ran water and scrubbed. My depression hit me strong and death looked wonderful. I sat on the floor struggling with a bottle of pills. Cal came upstairs and screamed when he saw. "I can't open it" I cried with desperation in my voice" Cal grabbed me tight and held me

Clark walked in and looked around and fell to the floor with me. "why does God hate me" I cried "no baby he doesn't. he's making you stronger" she comforted "what happened"Cal questioned I tried to answer but just cried harder. how do you explain to someone that you've been raped for the second time. You've been raped by someone you gave your heart to.

I laid in Cal's arms and fell asleep.

i woke up screaming, hoping it was a dream. I looked over and saw Cal and Clark on the floor sleep. I looked at my phone 20 text, 30 phone calls and 19 kiks mainly from Q. All basically saying that he's sorry or imma whore. I still can't believe this happened. I just stopped feel like I was useless. he made me stopping cutting and was my reason for happiness. now he's a pain in my heart. gunny how someone can go from someone good to someone bad so quick. I rolled over and cuddled my cover. Why me why did this have to happen to me. I started blaming myself. I shouldn't have let him in. I shouldn't have broke up with him. I have so much hurt in me. I just.. I can't explain it.