RELATABLE.

"Get rid of one-sided friendships.
Stop trying to date someone who won't text you back.
Stop giving energy to folk who don't reciprocate it.
Don't you know there is someone out there who wants nothing more than to walk with you through this thing called life?
But where are they gonna fit in if someone unworthy is in their spot?"
-Louie mac

Know that feeling when you have a crush on someone? The first conversation...always so special, so juicy, so filled with lust because you know you want to fuck that person so bad. Maybe start a relationship down the line if you are like me, I've always been somebody that tries to give chance after chance no matter how much they've hurt me and I hate that I fall so hard and wear my heart on my sleeve! I hate that I'm so gullible and easy to lie to, you look me in my eyes and still treat me like a damn fool? Who the fuck are you? Now I'm crazy because my impulsive behavior has kicked in and I'm calling your bullshit out into the tension filled air whereas my heart is not slowly but surely ripping into pieces! I curved you nigga and when you finally got a chance you treat me like a regular bitch? Muhfucka I'm special! I have the purest heart you could ever received, I cared for you even when you thought I didn't, I prayed for you! If that's not a blessing I don't know what is! You still treated me like a piece of meat that you want to smash real quick and slowly fade away...Masturbation doll once again? I think not, I'm glad I didn't fuck you, I hate that I grew on you, and I hate that you didn't feel the same way I felt about you... but time heals all right?
I pondered before I decided to go on and make the decision for you, I am tired of waiting because I honestly didn't know what you wanted but then again I did. I tried to trick myself time and time again saying crazy statements to make my mind, my heart, and my fucking soul feel better, yet it never did! Tired was a understatement for me and I refused to keep on playing with your ass! Always remembered though, fool me once shame on you...fool me twice shame on me. Did I follow the rules to that quote? Hell no, you know how females are giving chance after chance for some smooth player to ruin our life. It was all my fault because I fell too hard, now I'm just stuck in a pattern that's bound to be broken with guards held high on an extreme level just so nobody can ever take advantage of my genuineness. But it's life right? Disappointment after disappointment, it's starting to be so common that I don't even get pissed anymore.