There comes a time in life when you feel like life itself doesn't want you. You feel like a burden. All your loved ones make you feel like you're a constant burden on them. You feel so little that you want to hide somewhere, where no one can reach you. Everything reminds you of your worth, which feels like nothing. You want to succeed in life but every freaking stage of life throws failure at your face. You're hit with heavy waves of downfall and failure. You want to be of help, but nothing works on your side. Every night you go to sleep with swollen, sunken eyes. Your pillows are always wet with tears of hopelessness and failed ambitions. You feel this mixture of emotions for yourself; pity, loathe, sadness, anger and emptiness. That's the stage where you want to feel numb but every force around you works on making you feel. You don't want to feel but hurtful words make you feel these pangs of pain. Your sole existence feels like a burden. You feel worthless, good for nothing. And nothing helps- no spirituality or kind words. Tears never dry. Eyes always moist. Cheeks burning with hot streams. You feel like the lump in your throat will suffocate you. It never goes away. Even when you try to busy yourself, your thoughts remain on the fact that you're nothing. That you're just worthless. This is what stops you from trying. You quit trying to achieve your goals. 'Cause through the path of all the misery and hardships, you lose yourself. You lose that excitement of becoming the one you dreamed of. You feel like no matter how much you try, you'll never be good enough. And you'll never have your worth. You live but just like a corpse- without a soul, plastering a perfect smile on your face and a laugher that blooms like a flower. But it's all fake. 'Cause deep down, you're dead. They all kill you with their brutal words. You start to believe that your existence is a mere burden. You give up. You lose hope. And just like that, another beautiful soul gets buried in the pit of brutality.
