So did he promise not to leave you ever? Did he make you feel special that you started to believe you really are? He taught you a wingless flight in the skies. You forgot what earth feels like. You forgot that, that's your abode. That dust is where you belong. All those promises of him not leaving you ever were just "promises".
He left you and it's all your fault. He left you because you pushed him to do so. You were scared he'd leave you? So you kept on bugging him, wanting time and attention from him, trying so hard to be there for him all the time so he won't forget about you, so he won't get used to being alone, so he'll start needing you. But what happened? You're the one who started needing him more than air itself. You started depending on him even when he told you many times not to. You got weaker when you tried acting strong. Your insecurities ruined it for you. You ruined it.
So you shouldn't be blaming him right? Because he's right for giving you hopes first and snatching everything in a moment then. He's well excused for ignoring you when you needed him the most. And he's definitely not to blame when you complain about him not talking to you when you miss him like crazy!
It's your fault that you believed he'd be any different. You're to blame for it all. You aren't the most pretty one. You sure aren't the best he's ever had. And you couldn't give him what the others could. You couldn't feed his bodily needs. And what makes you think emotions are enough? How did you ever think love would suffice? "Love is just a myth" he'd said. And turns out he was right and sure about it. That's why your love failed to keep him. Your love wasn't enough to satisfy him. He needed more. And he could get more, easily.
Why wouldn't he leave you though? He's perfect. The very best example of perfection. And you're just another girl, plain and average, not alluring in any way. Why wouldn't he take what he yearns for? Why wouldn't he get rid of you and start living again the way he used to. You were stupid and naive for thinking you could change him. That you could make him fall in love with you; and you even started believing he loved you. Yes, because he told you he loves you. But isn't that just too common nowadays? It's not hard to say things that you don't mean. He didn't love YOU. He just didn't want to hurt your feelings at the beginning. He just answered you for you'd tell him that you love him. You should be grateful he did you such a favor. He didn't hurt you first. So what if it's killing you now to hear him say he's tired of your bullshit? When he said you should stop expecting love and feelings from him. When he said he's fed up of your emotional breakdowns. It shouldn't hurt you so bad! No, it shouldn't! He has the right to leave you. He has the right to break his promise even if it means breaking your heart into a million pieces and ripping your soul out of your body.
You can't force him into loving you. You can't force him to stay. What you can do, only, is love him. Keep loving him unconditionally. Don't expect from him. Don't beg him anymore. You know your heart is too weak to bear this hurt and burden of rejection. You know it very well from what happened to you before. You shouldn't have loved him in the first place. As he said he hasn't forced you into anything, he can't force you to "unlove" him.
You are your own enemy. You are the weak and pathetic one. So bear with it now. I told you not to love again. I told you not to trust anyone again. I warned you he'll be just like the others. But you were too blinded by his love to believe me. Now suffer the consequences! 'Cause I told you NO ONE STAYS! !!!
