Just A Bit Of Darkness

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"Fuck off!" I screamed
My head, my heart, my body, it was all broken.
"Fuck off!" I screamed at the masks surrounding me.
"1, 2, 3, 4, STOP!" I screamed, pouring the pills into my palm. "PLEASE!" I fell to my knees. I grasped my hair with my free hand.
My tears were flowing down my hot cheeks. My spit, slipping off my lips. "5, 6, 7, 8," I cried, counting each pill that fell into my hand.
My heart ached. My chest tightened. My body shook. "PLEASE, NO MORE" My voice cracked and I fell to my side, gasping for air through my sobs.
I gulped down the pills before spilling more into my hand "9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17" I sniffed and chugged then down too.
The entirety of my body ached and shook with every sob.
"Why..?" I whimpered, hugging myself as tight as I could. I know it sounds silly but I felt as if I would break into millions of pieces if I didn't. My eyes were puffy and my throat hurt from the screams but they wouldn't stop. It had no mercy, it was ruthless.
"Why would you-" I gagged, my body was killing itself. "Why would you do this?" My chest felt like it was breaking.