When I close my eyes and think of all the memories of you and i......fine I agree we aren't together anymore I have no rights or claims over you but trust me forgetting you and everything we've shared is the hardest thing ever when every and any little thing reminds me of you its like you are stuck inside my head or something because every waking and concluding thoughts are all about you .
Love really is a big illusion I should try to forget but the memories just won't leave me I can't move on having grown so used and attached to you now everything hurts and am deranged when it ended it felt like a part of me had been taken you came into my life in your impromptu way all bright smiles and wide eyes dragging me into something I couldn't resist hell I had a choice but I just couldn't resist you , you were my wrecking ball u broke all my walks and facade you seduced me into feeling vulnerable . Funny how I still think of you and smile , you made other males seem inferior , you made me feel giddy , made the butterflies in my tummy active . when everything started changing I felt like ending it but then I thought that if this is the only way I'd have you in my life then I dont mind .
During vs you asked if we'd ever go back to how we were before and I said I was ready whenever you were I felt that was my silver lining that things would get better but alas...reality slapped me....
Many times I'd want to say i miss u , I'd want to call you , I'd just want your attention , I'd want many things but I dont ask because I feel like am treading on troubled waters around you and mahnnnn does it hurt badly........
