I don't choose to wake up, my body does. It gets on my nerves sometimes. I just wanna stay asleep forever and never wake up. But my goddamn body hates me....and I hate it. I wish I wasn't alive and I just wish I can end it all right now. But then I met Jacob. Why Jacob you may ask? It's because he had walked into my life and changed it all. I don't why. But god happened to just send an angel down here just for me. Why did he do it? I ask everyday. Why did god send this angel down here just for me? I'm worthless and I can take care of my own things.
Most things I ever knew about Jacob wasn't really personal. His favorite colors purple, he likes rock music, he has never had a girlfriend, he never had his first kiss. Okay, okay. Some things were personal but not really.
I slowly gotten out of bed and just sat there staring at the wall. What is my life? I get up and start to walk to the bathroom and look into the mirror. God, I look like shit. I used the toilet and washed my hands staring at all the scars. I want Jacob to help with this. I walked out and got my clothes and got dressed. But once i took off all my clothes I looked into the mirror again. Fat, disgusting, not good enough, petty, worthless. All these thoughts came to mind. I get dressed and brushed my hair and got ready to leave. I shouldn't go to school, it's bullshit. I grab my keys. I'm going anyways......to see him.
I drove to school with Marilyn Manson screaming through the speakers. Wide awake now? I walk up to the school after I parked and open the door to the school. Turn back. Turn back. Turn back. I walked into the school and went straight to my locker. I gotten my things and went to the first class. Fuck you. I sat in my seat and look next to me. Jacob? Where is he? I need him. I sat there and class begun. 15 minutes later Jacob comes through that door. Holy shit.
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RandomI take a minute to just look at him. He really is gorgeous. His messy, black hair, just long enough to cover his forehead, and his perfect blue eyes seem to sparkle in the light. I start to think about how well our bodies would fit together. I wrap...
