Blaine's Nirvana

🧬Liv A Little🧬

"Throw science at me"  Blaine and Shivani hear Liv say as they walk towards the Morgue "throw some my way, too, doc"  Blaine says as he walks inside with Shivani close behind chuckling softly "I got your message about this promising new cure"  he adds looking over at his wife "he used a buffer agent"  Liv tells him "yeah of course to normalize mitochondrial metabolism in relation to cellular...."  Blaine starts GOD he couldn't WAIT for this brain to fade out of his system though he did like the way Shiv's cooking made it taste even after reheating for the first time since the car ride here he sees Shiv smile which made eating the brain he slightly hated worth it and his body sighs at the sight as Ravi says "all right, all right, all right I've had about enough of you two dilettantes"  Ravi hands Blaine a needle full of some light yellowish liquid and says "this is an in-case-of-an-emergency break-glass potential cure cured the zombie rat, who remains, for the moment, alive but we have no idea of its long-term effects"  Blaine replies "like life itself"  Ravi tells him "I am only giving this untested version to you because of the potential of your death leaving Seattle zombies unfed"  Blaine asks "so it's not the love that dare not speak its name brewing between us?"  Ravi replies with a nod "reasonably certain"  Blaine hums and says as he starts to head out the door "gotta go double-parked the hearse"  he loops his arm through Shivani's taking her with him and she softly chuckles waving at Ravi and Liv Ravi looks at her with a concerned expression on his face he could tell that she was feeling low but he wasn't sure why and unlike his relationship with Liv which was very open and filled with a friend/family kinda love there were some doors in Shiv's life that you just have to leave shut and quite possibly locked.... before heading back to Shady Plots Shivani drives home to make a "better" meal than the ones she could make with the portable stove at the funeral home and asked Blaine if he had any requests which she regretted doing since he says "like a last meal sort of thing huh!?!"  Blaine nearly kicked himself as he watches her storm out of the car without a word he knew that she would eventually forgive him but he also knew that he hurt her and that was much worse than the knowledge of how fast she did forgive or at least pretended too she is the perfect wife TOO perfect especially for him everyday she proved why he wasn't "worthy" of her that he didn't deserve her she left a laptop, stack of playing cards, a book, the car running with his favorite Nirvana and Fecal matter songs playing through the speakers.... she had connected her I-Pad to the radio of the hearse so that it played music without the annoying commercial breaks that may "make" him "WANT" to buy something kinda like watching the shopping channel while drunk.... Shiv cooked Don E, Chief and Blaine's favorite foods as well as desert using the brains she had in her fridge.... then she put them in Tupperware and packed them into a picnic basket along with a bottle of Blaine's favorite wine in a way Blaine might be right it could very well be his "last meal" but she didn't want to think about that Steve was walking out of his apartment as she was walking out of her condo and he ended up going to Shady Plots with Blaine and Shivani "don't worry I'll order something and we can pick it up on our way there"  Steve tells her after she offers to go cook him something since the only things she made had brains in them she nods and they both walk towards the elevators then out to the hearse "having a party huh?!"  Blaine asks turning to face Shivani and Steve as they climb into the front of the car "more like a family get together"  Shivani replies "makes sense"  Blaine replies she rolls her eyes at him as she places the picnic basket next to him and Steve who got in on the drivers side started the car and drove off....

Blaine couldn't believe how stupid he was being ever since he reverted to zombie form it was one bad "joke" after another and the worst ones were brought Shivani's way the most HURTFUL ones it wasn't HER fault all these things happening to him it wasn't HER fault that he changed sooner than expected in a way he was glad he changed and in a way he wasn't at least when he died the first time she wasn't there to see it if he dies NOW she will be and he doesn't want that.... Shivani handed Chief the picnic basket she didn't want to have anything to do with Blaine's "last meal" Don E was shocked to see a meal in the basket for both him and Chief though Chief wasn't he has had plenty of meals made by her before working for Blaine she was the one he got his brains from and unlike Don E he wasn't picky about his food he was just grateful he got to eat at all but then again he was the type of guy who also wouldn't mind getting brains the OTHER way as well he was also one of the men who took the bodies that Shivani killed for "simple" "stupid" reasons which actually changed AFTER she met and started dating Blaine for in a way she had someone who was willing to do the "dirty work" himself if necessary for he was VERY protective of her just like Chief is.... Chief kissed her cheek as he takes the basket from her "there's also a bottle hidden on the bottom for the two of you.... it isn't wine it's Jack"  she tells him he nods then watches her walk upstairs to go hang out with her brother.... he knew her well enough to know when she DIDN'T want to talk about something and whatever was going on with Blaine was definitely NOT something she wanted to talk about.... Shivani knew that Blaine was "finally" giving Chief and Don E all the business "secrets" but she didn't know that he had picked out his casket and final resting place.... Steve kept Shivani busy by having her play an actual D&D game with him on one of the display caskets he actually planned on staying the night at Shady Plots because he had a feeling that Shiv and Blaine were also staying so he sat in the casket he planed on sleeping in that night and they used the bottom half of the cover as their table which made Shiv chuckle slightly they could both hear Blaine coughing downstairs it sounded as though he was hacking up half his lungs and even though she was worried Shivani stayed put because she knew perfectly well what Steve was trying to do even though he knew it wouldn't truly work though it kinda did.... partially.... just like her brother she had a way of blocking out the world and "getting into character" when playing games like D&D but with how her mind and heart worried about Blaine in such an immensely intense way she was only halfway immersed in the "story"....

That night as Steve slept in his "chosen" coffin.... with the top part of the cover open and his hands laying over his chest fingers intertwined with one another as you see them place the dead in a casket in the movies and such.... Blaine sits in his office chair with Shivani sitting sideways in his lap with her head on his chest "what should I do!?!"  he asks softly with a sadness in his tone she sits up and looks at him "I can't make that decision for you!.... it's your life so it's your choice!.... just know that I love you and I will support you with whatever decision you decide to make"  she says placing her hand over his heart she kisses his lips and he starts coughing "s-sorry"  he whispers "it's alright B"  she replies laying back on his chest as lightly as she possibly could rubbing the center of his chest with her hand he smiles and kisses the top of her head "I'm going to miss that!"  he whispers softly she fights back the tears that threaten to fall and the anger she felt from his words that cut like a knife to the heart she closes her eyes and tries her best to fall asleep.... once Blaine felt Shivani stop rubbing his chest he knew that she had finally fallen asleep he kisses the top of her head and whispers softly "I love you"  as he reaches for his computer mouse and donates money to a muscular dystrophy charity... something he wouldn't normally do.... and he smiles as he figures out just what type of brain she had fed him "a do gooder huh!?.... you clever woman you!"  he whispers.... after a few seconds of looking down at the woman he loves and combing her hair with his fingers Blaine picks up the needle that Ravi gave him and as carefully as he could he reached over her and stuck it into the bend of his arm then pushed the liquid into his bloodstream kissing the top of his wife's head quite possibly for the last time and whispers softly once more "I love you"  and hears her reply in a soft sleepy tone as her hand grips the "v" of his shirt and squeezes "I love you too"  he smiles and falls asleep holding her body as tightly to his as he dared it he held her so tight it was almost "death grip" worthy

dilettante defined by google as: a person who cultivates an area of interest, such as the arts, without real commitment or knowledge.