Destined

Seven

Evelyn

I asked Daniel if he'd come over today, of course, he said yes. He was always giddy when he saw me. If I had to find a word to use to describe it, adorable would definitely be the winner. Since I haven't seen him in a few weeks because of his family being fairly busy, I couldn't be more excited for him to come to hang out. My parents love him and no one seems to be complaining about us. They all say we fit each other well and I couldn't agree more. On paper at least, we fit with our grades and our school curricula but I don't know if outside those things were what most call compatible. He treats me well and cares for me greatly which is always a good sign however sometimes it leaves me to wonder if it's all for show or if he actually thinks were the perfect match.
Even though we've been together for quite some time, like I had previously mentioned, I still like to dress up so I can look nice for him. So I spent hours switching up my outfits before finally feeling beautiful enough. It wasn't much but if I was able to feel confident and comfortable in it, it was approved by me.
I ran to the door when the bell rang throughout the house and opened it with a large grin on my face. Daniel had his arms wide waiting for me to find myself in them to which I quickly did. He held me tight, my face buried in his neck until I looked up at him to then he told me I looked very respectable. I kissed his cheek as a thank you then led him inside so we could figure out what we wanted to do if anything at all.
"What is this?" The dreadful voice speaks from the stairs. I look up at Alexander and unknowingly move closer to Daniel.
"I asked Daniel to come over today."
"So this is the mysterious Daniel that I've heard absolutely nothing about." Alexander eyes him up and down, "There's not much to him, don't know how you're kept satisfied."
"Alexander, that's enough."
"Who are you to say anything about me or my relationship?" Daniel pipes up.
"A man with much more experience than you kid. Where I'm from, scrawny kids like you don't get much action so I doubt you're satisfying little Evelyn here." I was disgusted. How could Alexander just feel so okay talking about me and my relationship like this? How could he think it was okay?
"Well, I'm getting plenty of action okay, so why don't you just leave us to our time." Daniel was lying. He told me he wouldn't do it again but here he is lying about the things we do. Why would he bring it up again after we talked about this? Alexander looked at me with his eyebrow raised trying to see if Daniel was telling the truth or not but I avoided his gaze.
"Okay, pal. I'll let you get away with pretending you're sleeping with her for the time being but don't forget, I can always tell when someone's lying."
After sitting in my room with Daniel for a few hours he says something I didn't expect to come out of his mouth. "Maybe it's time, you know. Maybe it's finally time to sleep together." I stare at him and my mouth falls open. "Oh, come on! Don't look at me like that. We've been together for almost a year and we've done nothing of the sorts."
"I told you I'd let you know when I was ready. I'm not ready."
"You're never ready and you're never going to be ready. This isn't fair to me!"
"I'm not giving up how I feel about this just to please you. So if it's unfair to you maybe you should just leave." He didn't move an inch. His expression never faltered, he was like a statue.
"I'm not leaving," he finally says.
"Why did you let him get you? Alexander isn't worth it." I ask, genuinely curious and a tad upset.
"Why didn't you stop him from saying something?"
"Are you serious right now? I don't control him, I can't control the shit that comes out of his mouth. But you, you are capable of controlling how you react and you shouldn't have reacted that way. And most definitely, you should not have lied because now you have put me in a position that I am going to be teased and questioned about. What happened to I promise I won't do it again?"
"All about Evelyn." He scoffed and bit down hard on his lip, "everything's always about Evelyn. Do you want to know what happened to that promise? It was bullshit."
"I beg your pardon."
"I'm not in the mood to talk right now, I just want to be left alone. Can you believe this asshole is ruining my day? I'm sad so let me just ignore everyone and not talk to the one person I should be able to open up to!" He's impersonating me, "those are things you say and do and it's always that. Do you ever stop to think about me and how my day might be going? No, because everything is always about you."
"Get out," I say just above a whisper.
"No, you don't get to tell me to leave. This is my decision, I am leaving. I'm done. We're done. You're just too much for me to handle. Get some help." And with that, he walked out of the door and out of my life.
Get some help. Get some help. Get some help. Get some help. Get some help. Its almost as if he thinks I haven't tried. He knows I've been seeing somebody about my issues. He knows I want to get better, that's why those God damned pills are in the kitchen cupboard. Yes, some days I don't take them because I'm not noticing a difference but in the end I know I have to take them.
It didn't hit me for a minute until my mind screamed at me like a broken record, "You're alone." It was right, I was completely companionless for the first time in a long time and I'm unsure of what to do. Do I go on with my day or do I lie in bed, crying or numb like I'm supposed to?