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!!!Excuse Me!!!

Hello there!

This isn't exactly a rant.

But, it's going to be one about changes in my life.

So... Fair warning...?

Afternoon everyone! If you didn't know, my name is Mary! But, you can call me Queen or Kawaii!

I've realized that I haven't been feeling my best lately. Between depression, suicidal thoughts, and minor heartbreak, I've been really down. I decided that is going to change.

I am going to do my best to be a happier person! So, I'm going to take some time to find myself. Rekindle that spark that helped me want to write my stories, want to get more involved with you all. It breaks my heart that I've lost my spark. That I lost myself in the midst of everything.
I'm going to be a happier person on my own accord. I have my own decisions and you have your own. I respect all of your decisions. Honestly. But I do have my own.

I don't give up on people. If you ever need help, please come to me.  I'm always here. Though I can't talk in PM, or even on message boards, there is a comment section. And that I can respond to!

So please! Contact me!

Now, with all this talk about me being more positive, I also understand that most of you have dark moments. I do too. Though not as much as I used to.

I used to deal with suicidal thoughts, wondering if I'm good enough, wondering if I'm actually beautiful to anyone. It pains me to say this, but I've been dealing with thoughts like this for about 5 years now.

Wondering.

Crying.

Waiting.

But now, I can proudly say that I'm better! Though the thought does pop up every once in a while, I can happily push it down and be myself!

I'm relearning to love myself. Because, who would love someone who can't love themselves?

I can happily say that I love my personality! And I'm proud of it too! Me and all my weirdness! Me and all my problems!! Me learning to deal with my shit and let other shit go!

Yay! Yes! Awesome! I'm so fucking happy right now!

Stay positive guys!

I'm always here if you need me okay?

I love you all!!!

You're the best!!

Love you all!!

~M. E. L.