i got out of the hospital today.
i took too many pills.
my heart is fine.
so is my liver.
i wish it wasn't.
i wish that i wasn't alive and my heart stopped beating.
i wish that i no longer ate to much and no longer had to look in mirrors.
my heart isn't fine though,
it hurts
aches
beats too fast
i am alive and breathing and that is not okay.
because i am not okay.
i am not some stereotype for you to laugh at.
i'm not joking or making this up.
this is real life.
this hurts.
i hurt.
