Why Me?

Chapter 4

 To be repaired.

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Carly's POV

It's Sunday, and that means that Luke is coming to school tomorrow for the first time.  At least that's what he told me.  I really like Luke, a lot.  I never felt this way about a guy before, and I know it has only been three days since we met, but I feel like we get more and more attached every time we hang out.  I really wanted to hang out with him today as well.

Me: Hey, can you meet up to get coffee, and come over to watch a movie at my place?

My nerves were flying off the wall.  I hadn't had a boy over in my house since my parst relationships.  Well, actually, i haven't had a boy that I have feelings for over in a long time.  My phone buzzed.

Luke: That soundsreally fun:) What time?

I didn't even think that Luke was going to say yes, now I need to see if he can actually come over.  I knew that my mom probably wouldn't care, she knows that I can date anyone that I want, but my dad has less sympathy, and feelings.  I trudged downstairs, ready for rejection.

"Hey, mom, dad?" I called.  They were both in the livingroom, alog with my sister and by brother.

"Yes, honey?" My mom asked.

Now everybody's attention was on me.

"Well...I was wondering if...my friend could come over...and watch a movie...with...me..." I said looking at my fingernails.

There was an icy silence before my mom spoke up first.

"Well, yeah, of course! Just don't stay up to late, it's a school night" She said smiing.  On the other hand my dad, sister and brother were looking at me and giving me weird looks.

"Are you hiding-" My brother started to say, but I cut him off and ran to my room.

Luckily my room had a TV in it, and Luke and I could lock ourselves in it,and watch in peace.

Me: You can come at 4:)

Luke: Fantastic, see you then:)

I was trying to conceal my screams because I was so happy.  I didn't know how to describe that I was seeing someone to my family.  But the thing is, i'm not actually his girlfriend, so I don't know why i'm being so protective over him.  I just feel like if I lose him, i'll have nothing left.  but the thing is that I do have things.  I have a nice family, and a wonderful group of older brothers.  But Luke...Luke makes me feel different.

Really different...

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Luke's POV

I was really happy when Carly texted me and asked me to come over, but I don't exactly wanna get attached to her. I mean, I really like her, a lot, but I feel like if I let her get attached to me, i'll let her down in some way.  I don't know what to do, and i'm so lost.

I marched to the bathroom and took out my hidded blade that I kept under the sink.

Why do you do this to yourself Luke?

Why do you have to hurt yourself to feel no stress?

Damaging yourself only damages everyone around you.

It's not the solution...

These thoughts are always in my head when I have this damn blade in my hand.