The Bad Boy's Girl{Currently editing}

Chapter 26: Inner angriness

Life bipolar. One moment it can be happy as fuck the next moment it can be pissy. It will ruin everything and it could all add up to some fairy tale type shit in the end. In the movies the guy gets the girl. The girl lives a happy life being popular after being a nobody.

But no. This is no movie. The fucking doesn't get his bitch! The bitch stays a fucking nobody! That's life!!!!  It doesn't get no better than that! We can't change what happens to us. We get all the damn challenges and no damn prize!

Nothing, Nada , Zero!!!  Not one!! Yet were expected to appreciate life. How are you supposed to appreciate something that's been shity to you all along.

What the hell did I do? Do I really deserve this? I mean I always cared about others then I cared about my self. I didn't want to admit that. I just wanted everyone happy. I wanted to keep strong for my friends. I can't cry in their time of need. And its a lot of pressure to have. I'm only 17. And I just turned 17 yesterday!!!

I went through so much let me tell you.

I met my bestfreind in pre-k. We stop bing friends in 1st. I met Andrew in 1st. I had a older brother and younger sister.  in 7 grade my dad died. My mom out of sadness needed some one. She started dating this man name Lucas. He was a monster.

After while he started beating my mom and me. We couldn't seem to get away. He took my virginity young. Evey time he'd get drunk he'd think I was a virgin all over getting for getting the fact that he took that right way from me. He'd punch me like a man and kick me like I was nothing.

Fucking bastard left scars! Then he had the nerve to call me a slut and hit me in front of Jacob. He tried to defend me but Lucas pulled out a gun and shot me.

To make matters worst I was close to pounding the bitch Victoria face in. She embarrassed me and spread false rumors. She's a bitch and I've never had so much hate in a person. Never. Then I finally give up and strick back to find out one of my some what of a friend was on her side!!! Like, SERIOUSLY!!!

I gave up and left it alone. Then tried to have a good time at my birthday when I got a note say they Abducted my brother and best friend sister.  And  Now I'm so angry! This is 17 Years worth of angry. Inner Angriness that I can't explain.

Its time I let it out and get my brother and Keynna back. They do not need to go through any of this because of me.

I was up all night. I haven't been to sleep or eating for 3 days straight since my birthday. Slowly waiting for school day to come. Monday we were off so it was Tuesday when I got up early to her dressed.

All I ate was granola bars and drunk Gatorade. I've been working out too. I've been to the gym for hours. I don't sleep at night. I usually pass out. Yes, I turned in to an alcoholic. I'd drink until I pass out and wake up with a killer hangover.

What can I say?! I'm pissed with the world! Utterly disgusted!! I hate that everything is happening to me!

I mean can you really blame me?!

Have you seen the way life treated me. If life was a person and was to pass away I'd piss on it's grave. That's how angry I am.

I just can't believe..... I mean this isn't some1790 gangster movie, Who dah fuck kidnaps people these days!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!! Kill me just kill me now!

I woke up my head pounding like a mother fucker. I broke my phone throwing it across the room on night.  I stood to take a Tylenol.

I pushed everyone away. I haven't talked to any one. Not Jacob or Sunshine. No one. Angel is getting bigger by the day and I missed my friends. Lucy, Andrew all of them.