I'm fine i'm just beyond repair

Chapter 4

The opportunity to talk to the boy. Luke apparently came sooner than expected, for Calum befriended him within a few days. Michael could've known that, since Calum was friends with Ashton and got invited to his parties all the time. Calum always asked Michael to come but Michael didn't like parties and crowds and people, so he always stayed at home.

The older boy didn't understand why Calum didn't eat lunch with Ashton and Luke and the others, for they probably were a lot more fun than Michael, but Calum got mad whenever he asked him.

"You're my best friend, and I'm not leaving you for them. You are fun, now shut up about it." Calum always told him, and though Michael really appreciated his best friend, he was afraid he was going to turn out just like Michael one day, because of the isolation and all the negativity that radiated around Michael.

"We can both sit with them, they sure won't mind. They're nice, trust me." Calum tried again. It wasn't like he didn't want to sit with Michael alone anymore, he just wanted his friend to talk to other people a bit more, and Michael knew that, knew the kiwi boy just wanted what was best for him. Michael was scared though, scared of what the lads would think of him. They'd probably think he was some kind of weird creep; maybe they already did.

"If you don't like it, we'll just have lunch together tomorrow." Calum promised him.

For the first time in years, Michael gave in, but only because he wanted to talk to Luke. Or at least try to talk to him.

"Hi guys." Calum greeted the guys and they immediately shifted a bit so the two boys could join them. Ashton greeted both Calum and Michael and the older boy already got suspicious. What if Calum had told them why he was so grumpy all the time and what if they were only being nice because Calum had asked them to? The boy tried to push those thoughts away and smiled at Ashton. Luke was sitting opposite of Michael and politely smiled at him.

"'Ello neighbour." he said.

Michael didn't really know how to respond, but he figured a simple 'hi' would do.

"You listen to Blink too right?" the boy asked out of nowhere and Michael nodded.

"We can always hear you, whenever your window is open. My mum hates it but I think you've got a great taste in music." The boy chuckled, and Michael couldn't stop his cheeks from turning pink.

"Thanks" he mumbled, and Calum winked at him, happy he was finally talking to someone else.

"You play the guitar right?" Michael didn't know where the courage came from, but he just wanted to keep the conversation going, and music had always been his passion.

"Yeah I do. You hear that?" it was Luke's turn to blush.

"Yeah, you're really good." Michael wanted to tell him he could also hear him sing sometimes but he didn't want Luke to think he was some creepy stalker, so he just ignored it.

"Thanks. You too." Luke smiled.

Michael had an electric guitar and maybe he played a bit too loud every now and then but he loved blocking out the voices in his head by playing his favourite songs. He sang along too sometimes, and he really hoped Luke hadn't heard that.

"You know, Ashton plays the drums, maybe we could jam out together some time." Calum suddenly interrupted. He played the guitar too and he had always wanted to form a band. It had been his dream since he started listening to green day, thanks to Michael.

Ashton's face lit up at that and he started rambling on about all the songs they could cover and that they could practice in his garage and make a YouTube channel and the other three boys just listened as he went on and on.

Michael actually liked the idea too, though Michael had lost interest in most of his hobbies, making music was the last he actually enjoyed. And maybe it would make him feel a little better if he'd make music with new friends.

Michael always locked himself in his room, listening to or making music, the only times he left the house was for school or therapy. It would be good for him to actually do something for once.

The purple haired boy had never seen a bigger smile on Calum's lips when he smiled right after agreeing on jamming together that afternoon.