Smiling but secretly dying

the pic is her medication
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I'm Haley Parker, I'm 15 and I live with my mum and jester my dog, this is my story.
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I walk out of my bedroom and down the stairs to see my Mum drinking coffee and jester running towards me. "Jester calm down" I say while trying to stop him from jumping on me, "hi hun, I made eggs and bacon" she reported while looking at me full of hope and joy. I walk over to the counter take my plate and started to walk up to my room "thanks Mum!" I shouted as I walked up the stairs.

Once i was done eating I put my plate on my bed side table and put on a pair of high waisted jeans, a mustardy yellow jumper and my black high top vans. I walked over to the mirror and looked at my once long blonde hair that had now been turned into shoulder length greyish, platinum blonde with black roots "gross" I whispered to myself while holding my stomach "why can't I be skinner or taller?" I questioned myself. I stood there looking at my body, I was shortish, tan, blue eyed and freckle faced, my mum always tells me I'm beautiful and unique but I'm not I'm ugly, gross and annoying as fuck ask anyone they'll tell you.

"Haley!" My thoughts were interrupted by my mum "time for school!" She shouted "coming Mum!" I shouted back, I'm kind of glad she interrupted my thoughts otherwise I would of gotten to deep. I grab my phone, wallet, bag and run down stairs. I kiss my mum on the cheek before running out the door and walk to school.

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I got to school And went straight to my locker then all the sudden I hear him, "god no" I mumble. It's Blake fields, the schools golden boy with his two friends, Neil Griffith and Gab withers. Blake is waking down the hall winking at girls, Gab is flexing and Neil like always is glaring at everyone but shortly after them is the bitch face jess, my bully.

"hey gross whore" she says while smacking my books to the floor. I look down while a tear stings in my eye. "hey can you leave her jasper, I need to talk to her" I hear a voice say, I turn around to see Blake standing behind me "it's Jess and okay, call me!" Jess exclaims while walking backwards blushing and pushing up her boobs. I bend down to pick up my books but Blake beat me to it, he passes them to me and says
"Can you help me?"