10,000 Lost Thoughts

Chapter Two

Chapter 2

*Next Morning* 

I rolled over and saw the clock read 13:00. Hmm i crawled back under the covers. "WAIT WHAT 1PM IM GONNA BE LATE FOR SCHOOL WHY DID NO ONE WAKE ME UP!?" i practically screamed from my bedroom frantically looking for my uniform when my mum calmly walked in, "I've phoned the school and explained whats happened and that we are probably not coming back" she looked like a ghost but still tried to smile but i saw the small tears slip splashing silently to the floor. "Also I was thinking of moving to Australia yea? There always looking for nurses so i could apply and we can move there yea?" I smiled it was an easy choice, I had no friends I would be leaving Tommy because he was due to be buried tomorrow but we could still come over and visit him and plus im sure its what he would of wanted? I wanted to go now. 

 "When can we leave? For Australia? When will Tommy's funeral bee?" i asked all these questions in a flood while the rain pounded against the house typical English weather hey? Can't wait to get away from it already move to hot humid weather its gonna be awesome. But first i wanted some answer so we could go get away and start again. 

I decided to go for a walk. I got changed into a union jack top, skinny jeans but on some black high tops that i had got last Christmas, grabbed my white touch screen phone and off i went saying goodbye to mum and quickly grabbing my snap-back off the stairs i didn't really know where i was walking or why but whenever i want to think i normally just go for a walk it helps me clear my head you see. I dont really know why i have a phone there's only 3 contacts Dad, Tommy, Mum but Dad was gone and Tommy was dead but i could never delete them it was just something otherwise it would feel like erasing them both completely. Even though my dad did leave i didn't blame him and still loved him wherever he was. I told him this you see i use to text him everyday telling what I’d got up to i never got a reply but somehow i knew he'd seen them i only text him now for big things. That reminded me i got out my phone and texted; 

Dad,                                                                                                                                                                           wherever you may be I love and forgive you. Just to let you know Tommy died yesterday and his funeral is tomorrow 1:30 yea um and were moving to Australia can't wait.                                                 Roe xxx 

I mean it was his son he deserved to know right? I Had reached the park Tommy and I use to come when I was 5 and he was 6 we use to play on the swings then he would spin me on  the roundabout we use to come every Tuesday it was our time. "Hey" a familiar voice bought me outta my thoughts but it couldn't could it no? "Tommy?" I looked up and saw him just like he was there he walked and sat on the swing next to me like old times! "Tommy am i dreaming you’re you’re dead?!" He sighed a little.  

"Rosie this is only a dream if you want it to me if you believe but i don’t know to be honest i think im stuck but i came here and I’ve found you so i hope that what happens next i will still be able to be with you" Am i seeing a ghost? It wasn't like all the movies he was there but no one else in the park had their attention towards him if i was the only one to see him then it must look like im a loony great! I need to stop getting lost in my thoughts because as soon as one comes a thousand others come to. I turned back to the swing no one was there, great im crazy now?! 

Buzz Buzz I felt my phone vibrate against my leg: it was mum. Who else everyone else is gone right? Rosie come home now please! It's almost 7 you've been gone all day oh and the funeral is tomorrow and i have applied for the job and were awaiting reply they said within 2-3 weeks so hopefully by next month we'll be in sunny Australia! All day i'd been gone all day wow i really do get lost in 10,000 thoughts. One month and we could be there oh yay!