Engulfed by Darkness

Longing

It happens every time.
I find someone special, causing us to bloom into something special,
Yet every time, I am replaced, leaving me to wilt.
Now that you've left, my petals will remain closed and covered,
My heart will never blossom.
For each time someone leaves, they take a petal with them
Until nothing remains, and I'm too far gone to revive.
My thoughts still center around you.
All of my passtimes are distractions from you.
I continue to work myself to the bone to erase the hope that you still wish to remain close.
But I am not blind.
I know I hurt you.
I know my anxious rambles cause words to be said that I swear I don't mean.
I know I'm too lost in my head to even consider saving.
I know I'm not worth it.
But that will never stop me from missing you,
Longing for the time you spent by my side.
Longing for when we were a pair.
But you are moving forward, unable to bring me with you, leaving me far behind,
With only the knowledge that I will never catch up to you.
I hope you continue to blossom, but I will remain here,
Withered and longing for the time we had together.