^first of all this song got me emo and all motivated and just listen to it. listen to it rn, pls
jojfpfkf hello :)
i feell like i need to explain whyy i havent been updating frequently, im really beating myself up over it but good news is that i have a one shot ready and i have a chapter of lanterns half way in the making :')
why am i sucking at being a writer you ask?
because i've joined a new school, day before yesterday was my first day, and oh my god. i've already joined 2 months late and since it was my first day i had to carry every single book and my back was screaming throughout the whole day, not to mention i had one hell of a stomach ache and i wass o freaking exhausted. and tired. sleep deprivation really came back to bite me hard
and my knees hurt (my knee pain, and bc of the heavy load, it got worse i think), my head hurt, and i had to like hide the stomach pain and talk to my classmates, who, by the way, are so freaking damn nice and caring so that's good!
then im so stressed bc? exams? in a week? biG exams? and i have no idea wtf is going on because i have no notes? i joined 2 months late? so yeah i come back home, ajd im so exhausted and stressed and tired while having lunch i just sit at the table, plate in front of me, and cry.
i've heard from many people that sometimes you're just so tired you break, and just cry? and omg i went through that and holy shit i
i cry and like im trying to explain to my mom how my first day was but i cant, cause it's like my throat clogs up and my lip and voice starts to shake and then cue the eyes stinging and then i just cry while trying to talk? like im sniffling and awkwardly chuckling while trying to hide the fact that tears were rolling down my face but then my mom comes and gives me a big hug telling me to not worry about the first term exams since i joined two months late and that it'll be okay and not stress a lot, she said whatever grade i got would be fine,,, im still having a mental breakdown about it though lmfao
so todayyy, a girl in my class sent me the english notes. there are like 72 photos and and i just spent six hours, hunched over a table, writing and writing and writing essays and stories and plannings and analysis's and i cant feel my right hand which explains the typos ksjdksjs the cramps and the side of it huTRTSBSJDJD
lol guess what? that's just one subject, i have geography, history, social studies, science, maths,,,, it goes on ? she even sent me the geo, history and social studies bc she's so nice omg but there's 200 pictures i am going to die. send help.
i might have to amputate my hand at this rate ?
IM SUPPOSED TO BE SLEEPING SICNE THIS IS A SCHOOL NIGHT BUT I JUST FELT SO BAD ABOUT NOT UPLOADING ANYTHING AND I FELT THE NEED TO TELL YOU ALL WHY BUT I SWEAR ILL TRY!! ♥️♥️♥️
about our tough situation and all that jazz, things are finally, slowly smoothing into place. we're still on that rocky and bumpy af road but i can see the smooth highway nearing, day by day, all smooth and without those bumps and rocks in the way. everything's smoothing into place!
omg i should use that simile in a book skdjskdjdjdjdjdjdjs
flashback to a month or two ago when i was having breakdowns over here. but remember like my mom said, it'll pass fam!! sissies and broskis!! it'll passs!!! so don't worry about all this shit!!! it'll pass!!! stay strong and walk headfirst!!! ill be rooting for you and here to provide you with endless cuddles and snuggles on the way because i love and care for you!!!! ♥️♥️♥️
i wont be online as much anymore :( altho im pretty sure ill be commenting on your chapters and voting and popping up to see how y'all are doing,, but i wont be able to reply as fast :(( i hope that's okay,, im just catching up with things and trying to deal with all the stress and exhaustion :((
i am also going to end this off by saying that whatever's going on will pass OKAY ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ STAY STRONG IFLY ALL ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
right signing out marshmallows, — your local mochiii ✨💫💓💘✨⭐️💓💕
