When the Mask Drops

Chapter 28

Dream:

"I'm leaving you I can't support another kid and I don't love you anymore." Sasuke said walking out the door. "Mom I can't believe you are replacing me." Kyu said running after him. "I can't believe you went and got yourself pregnant I thought you had control." Kakashi said. "I can't stay and help raise it I'm sorry I have to run Uzu." Dad said using the yellow flash to leave. "I also have to help run it I'm sorry." Mom said using shunshin. "I can't stay with a little kid running around Haku let's go." Zabuza said jumping through trees. "I don't wanna be your friend anymore they are right I can't stay with a kid running around." Hinata said going to pack her things. "Kit I'm sorry but this won't work out I don't wanna be unsealed again." Kura said. "She's right." Uri said. Both of them wondered to the back of my mind farther than I can reach. Tsunade and everyone else aren't responding to messages. They think the same thing.

No

Why are they all leaving?

This isn't what I wanted.

I thought- I thought I was happy.

No

Im all alone again

I walked upstairs up to the bathroom. I opened the small drawer to find my razor not there. I went back down to get a knife.

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What am I doing. Everyone left but that doesn't mean... fuck. No I cant. Stop. "You brought this on yourself child no need to stop." A voice said. It was right.

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No I have a child in me.

End

I woke up gasping and panting. I felt my eyes getting teary and my heart and head pounding. My legs went numb and I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't breath and I just started shaking and crying. I looked at my wrist and ran my finger over it. More tears came out and it became harder to breath. My breathing was rapid and shallow. I couldn't see or hear. I tried to call out to someone but my mouth wasn't saying words. The tears didn't stop. I'm assuming Itachi is still out. My mind isn't matching my mouth. I'm trying to talk but nothing comes out. I'm just lying in bed. Paralyzed. I can't move. I can't talk. I can't feel. It's not sleep paralysis. I'm awake 100% sure.  My heart is racing my hairs is stuck to my forehead. I've had nightmares before why is this so different? "K kura??" I said telepathically. No response. "U Uri?" No response. They aren't in my mindscape but it should be working. After maybe 5 minutes I got the strength to sit up. I'm still numb everywhere. I'm still crying. I'm still rubbing my arm. I still can't breath. But I sat up. "M Mommy?" I croaked. I don't think she heard me. "Anyone?" I said a little louder. I feel like I'm drowning. Was the dream real? No it couldn't be. Right? I tried calling out once more but nothing came out. Not even a voice crack. Just silence. I can barely hear anything but my heart. But I did hear the front door open. From my guess it was maybe 10:30 pm since we got here around 9:00 pm and I slept. Although I don't know what took them so long. I tried to call out to someone but again nothing came out. I had a fever but I couldn't breath. My lungs were paralyzed. My sweat was going down my shirt now. My hair was sticking on to me. I couldn't see. My eyes where open though. I was crying. I was thinking about the nightmare. I couldn't stop. "Ita." I whispered. He was just outside my door but I don't think he heard me. I still can't really talk. Someone did turn the door nob and it was Sasuke. He turned on the light and rushed over to me. He moved the hair out of my face and wiped the sweat. "ITACHI!" I heard a muffled yell. "Sasu." I said I don't think even audible. Whenever I talk it burns. "Shh it's ok." He said holding me. Itachi-well I think it was him ran over and lied me down again. I wasn't crying anymore but my eyes where still watering. "What's wrong with her?" I heard my mom rush in. "Her fever got higher that's all I can say right now maybe a night terror I don't know." Itachi said quickly. "I'll leave, you stay and undress her make sure she stops sweating I'll make medicine and bring water." He walked out. "It's ok you'll be ok." Mom whispered. Everything was muffled but I could hear slightly. I also saw kura walk in. I could tell it was her because she was in her half human form. They started to take off my shirt and put my hair up into a bun. Flashbacks started racing through my mind and I started crying. I pushed away and hit my head on the head board causing me to flinch. "G get away!" I tried to say. "What's wrong?" Sasuke said. I just started breathing rapidly again. I started shaking and crying. "She's having flashbacks." Kura whispered. "What?" My mom said. "Of when the villagers would rape her or beat her she's having an anxiety or panic attack basically. No wonder I couldn't get in her mind." She explained. "Kit." She walked towards me. I just started to shake more. "N no get away don't...hurt...me." My voice came out small. I still can't talk or hear very well hell I can only see blobs but it's getting there. "Kit it's me the 9 tails remember?" She said softly changing into her human form. I nodded slowly and she proceeded to remove my clothes leaving me half naked. "The baby will be ok it's just a panic attack you will be fine. It's ok we are here. Maybe you had a nightmare that triggered this but it's not real you're ok." Kura hugged me. I couldnt hear all of it but I think I got most. I tried to hug back but my arms went numb. "B baby?" Sasuke said. "She's pregnant she was going to tell you but she didn't know how." My mom said. "H hearts...pounding." I croaked. "Shh." Kura said still hugging me. "I GOT MEDICINE." Itachi yelled. He poured a cup of cold water on me. I didn't even notice Kura let go. Suddenly most senses came back. I could see but my hearing was still muffled. My head was still pounding and so was my heart. I still couldn't breath very well but I stopped sweating. "Drink." He put a small bowl to my mouth and tilted it so the liquid would go in my mouth. The rest of my senses came back. My heart rate stopped at little bit going slower. My head still hurt but it wasn't unbearable. "What happened?" Mom asked. I slowly told her about the dream and she started light crying. Sasuke hugged me. "I'm not leaving I'm happy to be able to raise another kid." He smiled. I had my hand on my wrist the whole time. Not because anything new was on it. There hasn't been since my birthday. I just didn't want the dream to become a reality.

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