Is it a world,
a love,
a girl?
A crush above
all else
even life?
Bought off shelves
can’t be a wife
for love can never be bought
its only a thought
that won’t come true
is it really for you?
is this really your world?
this one specific girl?
What is this feeling?
the tingling
in your chest
the choice of the best
when there’s only one choice
and you don’t hear the voice
screaming at you, “NO!
This isn’t right, you should know!”
but no matter how loud it grew
the voice would never get through
so it wails at the back of your mind
words that you never will find
and when three words are all you need
they won’t come, not even a seed
a single word won’t come out
the voice will still shout
but the words aren’t kind
blaring loudly at the back of your mind
the words become cruel
then you feel like a fool
you should’ve heeded
those words once needed
you draw a blank
like you’re trapped in a tank
her smile begins to fall
like you aren’t there at all
her heart begins to sink
just as you can’t think
you are losing this war
and she won’t take it anymore
this will never be won
because that that voice actually loved someone
it sits there weeping at the back of your brain
slowly deliberately driving you insane
