Heartache

Close end

8th grade a new beginning a new year, at least that's what I believed. First day of school I see him and lawd he looked better then ever. He was at least 5'5 now. His hair was longer and his smile was everything. It made my knees weak and my heart hurt when I saw him. Thinking he would come straight to me to say hi I was so wrong. He walked right past me to my best friend Mckayla (at the time). As the day passed he began speaking to me even though I tried my best to ignore him it was hard. As the school year progressed me and Leo became more closer if that was possible. In February we made a promise to each other that if by our freshman year we are still virgins that we would loose it together to each other. Trust me I know what your thinking ah she's dumb all he wants to do is sleep with her but in that moment it felt like it was the most honest thing that anyone could ask. Soon after that he started dating my best friend Mckayla. When she ran to tell me that he finally asked her to be his girlfriend it took everything I had not to smack fire out of her when she said she said yes. My heart felt like it was broken into a million pieces just because I let a boy like Leo into my life. That night I went home and cried so much that it hurt. Have you ever done that cried to the point where it hurt if you have then you understand if not I hope you never experience it. They dated until the last day of school and few months after. While they were dating I had to be there for her because of course she was my best friend and so was he so I couldn't just abandoned them. But I tried, I secretly hated their relationship, at night I would pray they would break up sometimes and other times I would wonder why he wouldn't want me. Like was there something wrong with me was I not cute enough was I not skinny enough was my hair not long enough. Soon I realized that I didn't need to worry about him or anyone else for that matter. But then came prom night. That had to be one of the best nights I got to dance with a boy named Freddy who I was dating at the time. Leo couldn't come to the prom because he had summer school so therefore he couldn't graduate on time so I had went out side to get air and there he was. My heart was pounding so hard I thought he could here it. He looked so adorable I'm his suit and tie and that's exactly what I told him. He had the balls to wink at me and say thanks sweetheart. Instead of going inside to get his girlfriend or at least be with my boyfriend I stood with him outside in the cold for two hours talking and laughing and what I believe was flirting. At some point in the night we switched shoes, him in my heals and me in his loafers. By that time everyone was outside watching us dance around in each others shoes it was really amazing night. But sadly that was the last time I saw him until the summer before High school.