Sunflower. [Noah Centineo]

Thirty one

About a week later: 31st of July

My dad still wasn't out of this coma, i visited him everyday for the past week and things were going okay i guess. Except for the fact that Noah called me yesterday and asked why i wasn't back in LA yet.. I might have accidentally told him my dad was out of his coma and that i wanted to spend some time with him. Obviously Noah was happy for me and wanted to take the next flight to Oklahoma City to meet my dad. I told him that it wasn't a great time to meet my dad, he sounded disappointed, but i mean.. He couldn't meet my dad like this. Or see me like this. I was broken for the last week and a half, i only wore sweats and oversized shirts, never wore make up anymore. I looked like a freeking hobo.

The doctors in the hospital knew me by now. They always greeted me when i walked in and i didn't have to wait to see my dad. That was a perk.

I didn't sleep much the last week either. About 2 hours of sleep. I mostly cried myself to sleep or i just wasn't tired.

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Time: 14:58 PM

I got to the hospital and a nurse greeted me with saying "Hello Haley." I just waved my hand and walked towards the elevator. I pressed the button for the third floor. The third floor was were the people in a coma are. My dads room was all the way across the hall, so everyday i had to walk through a hall with mothers, daughters, sons, husbands and wife's crying. I just started walking faster and faster every time. Which eventually caused me to run to my dad's room. I opened the door and saw my dad, still lying on his bed, eyes closed, tube in his mouth.

Everyday i just hoped a nurse stopped me before heading to the third floor saying my dad was out of his coma and moved to a different room on a different floor. But that never happened.

"Hey dad." I said sitting down in the chair next to his bed.

"I- i miss you, please wake up soon.." I said softly

"I'm not doing so well without you," I said grabbing his hand and squeezing it tightly.

"I'm sorry if that hurts.." I said looking at his hand, "I told Noah you were out of your coma.. i know i shouldn't have lied to him, you would've given me a whole speech about how you should never lie to 'the person you love' " I said ending with me having tears in my eyes.

"Just.. just wake up soon okay, please dad." I said still holding his hand.

I then quieted down and just looked at him, holding his hand. A few tears dropped down my cheeks but i didn't mind.

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I fell asleep in the hospital that night. A nurse woke me up at 7AM, she told me that i should go home and get some rest and she said she'll call me if my dad got out of his coma or something else happened..

I just nodded my head and left the building. I didn't feel like driving back to the hotel, i was really tired and scared i might end up in a car accident so i just walked back, it wasn't really far, a short 10 minute walk back to the hotel.

When i got to my room i jumped on my bed and cuddled up in my blanked and just fell asleep.