Feel

Cold

Cold

Cold

Cold

Every thing is cold here

As if everything has been touched

by Jack Frost himself

Leaving a cold drab world in his wake.

My walls, decorated in colors of the rainbow

Now tinted gray

The vibrant colors painted across the sky

Now succumbed to the gray undertones of clouds

Even the sun

Feels like it was dipped in frost

And left to freeze

For not even the sun

Can stop this coldness from taking over me

Can stop the numbness from freezing my heart

Can stop the warmth in my body from

slowly

slowly

ebb away

into nothing

And in the end

all I feel in the end is nothing

The cold numbs my head and my heart

And it has froze me into a empty being

Whose eyes are dry even when faced with pain

Who remembers happiness like a painful memory

Who wishes that they could feel something

Something.

Something that will bring back the warmth

To chase the cold away

For the numbness to latch onto something else

And never come back

but even so

its like I've gone too far

Into the deep

where not even my former rays of sunshine

Friends.

Family.

Happy thoughts.

cant reach me to where I've gone

i hold a match

it burns bright

and i watch

with interest

how it burns

and i think

'that used to be me'

a young flame with passion burning though them

with burning emotions

glowing brighter and brighter

the match is halfway done

and i see

as the flame slowly dwindled

how fast flames can go

without the things it needs to keep going on

it reminded me

of how my flame went out too soon

for it to truly

burn

the match is almost done

the dying flame flickering slowly

its touching my fingertips

its warmth is the only thing I felt in days

I relish in the fact that at that moment

I can feel some thing other than that numbness that had taken over me 

so long ago

I can feel.

and the flame goes out

and the moment is gone

just as quickly

as it came