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I felt like I was gonna cry right then and there. How could one person ever make you feel so embarrassed and ashamed of yourself.
"Excuse me" I mumbled. I took my coat and ran into the bathroom and locked the door behind me.
I never wanted to leave, I never wanted to move. I started to cry silently to myself. I got startled when I heard a knock on the door.
"I'm sorry serenity , can I take you home"? Said Ethan through the door. I had to remember this was his house and he offered to take me home so I should come out. I creaked the door open slowly. I wiped my eyes and looked down at my hands. Mascara Smuges all over my hands. Ethan smiled, that gorgeous smile of his. He leaned in to kiss me. I kissed back slowly, no matter how deeper he tried to make the kiss I wouldn't let it happen. Not here. Ever.
I walked out the house to the car he followed.
We finally arrived at my house in silence. I didn't get out immeditley. I don't know what I was waiting for, I just didn't move.
"Serenity, I'm sorry for my dad's behavior. He just doesn't want anything to happen".
"Like what? Being pregnant?" I hissed. I don't know why that made me mad it just did at the way he put it like we were kindergarteners.
" Serenity , my family has been in a lot of accidents last year. Ericka got pregnant in college, so she had to drop out and now she is on her own. The father of Ashley is in jail, he just doesn't want anything to happen to you like it happened to Ericka." Ethan said looking at the keys.
"But it won't, because your different" I said stroking his hair. He looked at me like he wasn't sure. I felt lost in his facial expressions. Was he trying to tell me he would do the same thing?
"My father...-
"Is an asshole" ! I said cutting him off. I ran my fingers through my hair.
"He just doesn't want anything to be permanent serenity cant you at least understand that"? Said ethan getting upset.
"As in permanent what do you mean"? I said.
"A baby serenity! God, I don't want a baby and my parents don't want to be anymore grandparents anytime soon!" He yelled.
"And you think I want to be a mother? Its official you made it clear ethan, we never going to have sex". I said crossing my arms across my chest.
"Promise"? He shot back.
"Bye ethan". I said getting out the car.
"Love you too" ! He yelled out the window.
I rolled my eyes and gave him the finger.
He laughed and drove off.
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*Porsha's P.O.V*
"
Eat it" he said holding it out to me.
"No".
"Its just one".
"So".
"Eat it"! He said again. I rolled my eyes and opened my mouth. He put the vitamin in my mouth. Ughhh, what I most hated about being pregnant was these stupid vitamins I had to take.
Nobody was home expect me and ashton. He was helping me a lot over these weeks. I think I still love him, but I know he wouldn't be here if it wasn't for this human growing inside of me. I know it sounds crazy but being pregnant is the most happiest thing that ever happened to me. I get more attention at home; ashton is by my side every second ; my sister is barely home. I went to the doctors yesterday ffor a check-up and I have to take these vitamins; because the baby has no nails right now. I'm 6 months pregnant now. Me and ashton haven't made any physical movements towards each other since the night we did it. But I refuse to have a baby and he is not going to even look at me like he did that night.
"Hey, I gotta go". Ashton said looking at his phone grabbing his coat.
"Wait" ! I said getting up.
I walked over to him slowly. I put my hand on his cheek and leaned in to kiss him.
He pulled my hand back and I collapsed on to the ground just like that. I didn't even see him move.
"What are you doing?!" He said with a shriek. He held out his hand for me to get up.
"I was trying to kiss the father of my child, intil I got wrestled on to the ground"! I screamed.
He shook his head.
"Why"? He said confused.
"Ashton why do you think I had sex with you"? I said taking his hand into mine.
"You were mad at your sister"? He said unsure.
"Yes and because I loved you. I still think I do". I said biting my lip. He jerked back his hand.
"Look porsha, you're a cool kid. But just because your having my baby doesn't mean we are going to be together". He said slowly.
I tried not to cry.
"But I love you, and I thought you loved me too" I mumbled.
"I have to go" He said silently.
"Do you love me"?! I yelled.
He just kept walking like I said nothing,nothing at all.
I cried myself to sleep...with no one to love me. <3
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