When I'm With You

WIWY 35

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Relationship
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     "Hindi mo naman kailangan mag-thank you sa akin eh. You deserve all this. In fact, I think you deserve more." Ruru said sincerely and Kylie smiled at him.

     "I think na kahit sabihin mo pa 'yan, magta-thank you pa din ako sa'yo." Kylie replied.
     "Para saan ba lahat ng 'to, Ruru?" He added and he smiled at her.

      "Alam mo kasi, Kylie. Masyado na akong nakikinig sa isip ko na hindi ko na napapansin ang nararamdaman ko... ang puso ko." He asnswered and the food is already on the table but they're still talking and not yet eating.

     "Ano bang nararamdaman mo?" She asked again.

     "Madami akong nararamdaman, Ky. And I didn't give it to much attention. Pero ngayon... iba na." He answered and held her hand that's resting on the table.

     He caressed it sofly. "Kain na tayo, Ky."

     She nodded and they started the few things people mostly do in a date.

     "Sa Singapore ba, Ruru. Nagakroon ka na ng love life?" Kylie asked him and he chuckled.

     "Si Gabbi? I wouldn't call that a relationship that is worth every piece of me. Hindi naman 'yon relationship.
Napilitan lang kami." Ruru answered and she shook her head.

     "Hindi naman ganun. What I mean is, nagkaroon ka na ba ng tunay na relationship sa Singapore, because you haven't had one yet." Kylie explained and he seems to understand.

     "Actually... oo, nagkaroon na ako ng real relationship." He answered and she seems to have a mini heart ache when she heard that from him. She did asked him about that so she must expect at least something.

     "Hanggang ngayon?" She asked. Obviously, not anymore. He'll not go on a date with another girl if he's in a relationship. Then again, Kylie isn't just another girl for him.

     "Hindi naman, tumigil na 'yong relasyon na 'yon nung malapit na kaming bumalik dito sa Pinas and that's it." He answered again and she nodded.

Kylie

     I'm... jealous. The hell with this and I feel so bitter by the fact I'm not the first. I want to be one, but that's not gonna happen anymore. I'm okay as long as I can be with him. I can't wish for happiness, because there's more people who needs it and I already feel contented with what I have.

     "You're still in contact with her?" I asked. Whomever that girl is, maybe she's still in contact with him.

     "Hindi na. Bakit nga ba ako umasa na pwede akong umurong sa fixed relationship na 'yon ng hindi nagagalit sa akin ang mga magulang ko?" He answered and smiled bitterly. I never been forced so hard to do somethibg I didn't want to ba a part of. I wouldn't know how it feels.

     "Wag kang mag-alala, Ru. Sure akong magiging maayos na kayo soon." I said to brighten him up. He smiled at me and nodded.

     "Siguro nga." He said.

     "Ikaw, nagkaroon ka na ba ng relasyon this past years?" He asked me out of the blues. I looked at him and shook my head.

     "Hindi, I think I won't handle a relationship well. Hindi ata magtatagal kung magkaroon ako ng boyfriend habang busy ako." I answered and his forehead creases.

     'Hindi tatagal ang relasyon kung hindi mo mahal ang taong makakarelasyon mo. I learned that the hard way.' I said to myself. And yes, I have tried to be in a so called 'relationship' but it didn't gor smoothly. At the very beginning, there were problems that I can't solve because I didn't have the time to think straight.

     "Bakit mo naman naisip na hindi tatagal ang relasyon na magkakaroon ka?" He asked. As I said, if you don't love someone, then your relationship with them doesn't work out.

     "I'm too busy as I said. Hindi ko malulusutan ang kahit mga simpleng problema... kung magkaroon 'man." I lied. I can make the time and divide my time, but I don't want to be in a relationship if I don't truly love someone I'm with.

     'Akala ko kapag nagkaroon na ako ng relasyon, makakalimutan na kita. Akala ko makaka-move on na ako kahit hindi naman tayo.' I said to myself. Yes, I have thought before that if i was in a relationship I'd easily be able to move on. But no, I'm not capable of loving someone more than him.

     "I'm aware that you're very organize. Bakit hindi mo kayang hatiin ang oras mo?" He asked again. I'm not gonna lie, I don't want to answer the question, because the answers I truly have are the hurtful truth that I have been escaping what I should stand up for.

     "Ahh...Hindi ko na ata makakaya lahat. Everyone has there own limit." I answered and he nodded again. Please not another question.

     "I'm sorry..."

     "Bakit ka nagso-sorry?" I asked when he apologized for something I don't know. Is it because of what happened at the airport.

     "Dahil nasaktan kita." He answered and I smiled at him as I shook my head.

     "You don't have to say that. Wala ka namang ginawa ah?" I replied. He's apologizing because he hurt me. He didn't mean to and I know that for a fact. I remembered what he told me when we had a call last day. 'Actually, I love you more' is that true?

     "Totoo ba 'yong sinabi mo sa akin sa tawagan natin nong isang araw?" I suddenly asked him and he stopped. Am I suppose to say that?

     "Nag-aalinlangan ka bang maniwala?" He asked back. I won't if he answer my question.

     "Hindi naman..." I immediately answered and he smirked. Why did he do that?

     "Kung nag-aalinlangan ka, you don't have to anymore." He said and stood up and walked closer to my chair where I am sitting.

     "Bakit?" I asked and he signaled me to stand up. My forehead, creased as I looked at him.

     He looked behind me and smiled. I hot even more confused and then a light from behind me suddenly appeared.

     I looked behind me and I put my hand on my mouth in sudden shock. Oh my god! What the hell is this?
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11/19/18
From: Miss M.A.